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[_phenobarbidoll]

so i just realized that i kind of hate everything.

and i will never be as cool,
or have as many friends,
or go to as many parties.
i will never be up with any fashion
or enjoy confrontation.

i will always be me;
paranoid worrywart.
smart but just not smart enough
to get that scholarship. to impress.
i will always remember inadequacy,
inconstancy, inhibition.

where do i fit in? where do i go?

you could never understand how tiring it is
to make it through the day sometimes.