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I just had the strangest converstaion with Kawika. I haven't spoken to him for ages.. sometimes I still miss him. I told dbrulz the other day that I was pretty sure I was still loved him.. no matter how twisted our relationship got, all the sprouting on my part of loving him for the rest of my life was actually true.
Our circumstances changed, and the feelings shifted, and after all the hate and anger passed.. there was still a lot of love lingering. He said to me a few months back that it wasn't mutal. Yeah I was his friend but he didn't feel anything for me anymore, which I totally accept and have nothing against..
But we were talking tonight.. he was telling me about the things he remembers. How we met.. he remembers the night before I left for Canberra, and how upset I was, about how sweet my voice was....
And so I kept prodding.. conversation went like this...
Me:"I enjoy it sometimes."
Him:"What do you enjoy? Our reminiscing?"
Me:"Yeah... helps me remember... things were... better then."
Him:"Yes.. things were better then."
And then he left. Confuses me somewhat. I thought he was happier now without the confusion and agrivation which was our relationship for a bulk of the time.
I guess that whole "people keep surprising you" comment I made months and months ago is still true
And grrrr because Weir and Simon have ALMOST the same shippy music as Jack and Sam and it's VERY ANNOYING!