Coming back
Before I post anything else, there are a couple of things I have to say. Normally, I friend-lock anything that boarders on the realm of personal. However, this is an exception to that rule so that those close to me can know my mind. A more personal post shall follow tomorrow on friends-locked.
1) To those who are currently disappointed in my actions of late;
I am sorry. I realise I have acted like a bastard, and for this I apologise for letting you down. However, I cannot help the way I feel, and given the chance to go back and change things, I am not sure if I would for fear of risking what I now have. Things in my life have changed a great deal in the last 3 weeks and while it is going to be hard, I think things are going to become easier. I've got my spark back. To those that understand that statement, I would ask that you don't hate me for what I have done, but will understand your reasons for doing so. If this is the case, I thank you for all the years of love and friendship you have given me up to this point.
2) To those that have offered me support;
Thank you. In relation to the above, this cannot have been an easy time for any of you. You are amazing people that I will cherish always. Thank you for your support, whether it has been the form of a quiet chat, telling me How Things Are, listening to me whine, or just being there. I cannot express the words that will show how much you are appreciated.
3) To those who have backstabbed me while offering support,
While I am sure that there are more than the ones I know about, I had thought we were closer than that and that I was at least owed honesty if nothing more. Shout at me. Rant at me. Tell me I'm wrong. Don't lie to me. Especially not when it is likely to get back to me, or worse, when I am behind you to overhear myself. It hurts that I have been there for you through worse, yet you do not respect me enough to at least be honest.
Slowly but surely, life is slowly getting back on track after I initially Peter'd it up, There are a lot of changes, but slowly, am cobbling it into what I want it to be and am becoming better for it. There are a lot of changes going on, so things may be a little strained for a while. For those that are staying with me, thank you, you have my deepest respect, greatest sympathy and unending awe. For those that wish nothing more to do with me, I am sorry it has come to this and I think you for being as good to me as you have over the years, and respect your honesty - I am sorry I let you down or caused you grief.
Thank you.
Love to all, reciprocated or no.
-Peter
1) To those who are currently disappointed in my actions of late;
I am sorry. I realise I have acted like a bastard, and for this I apologise for letting you down. However, I cannot help the way I feel, and given the chance to go back and change things, I am not sure if I would for fear of risking what I now have. Things in my life have changed a great deal in the last 3 weeks and while it is going to be hard, I think things are going to become easier. I've got my spark back. To those that understand that statement, I would ask that you don't hate me for what I have done, but will understand your reasons for doing so. If this is the case, I thank you for all the years of love and friendship you have given me up to this point.
2) To those that have offered me support;
Thank you. In relation to the above, this cannot have been an easy time for any of you. You are amazing people that I will cherish always. Thank you for your support, whether it has been the form of a quiet chat, telling me How Things Are, listening to me whine, or just being there. I cannot express the words that will show how much you are appreciated.
3) To those who have backstabbed me while offering support,
While I am sure that there are more than the ones I know about, I had thought we were closer than that and that I was at least owed honesty if nothing more. Shout at me. Rant at me. Tell me I'm wrong. Don't lie to me. Especially not when it is likely to get back to me, or worse, when I am behind you to overhear myself. It hurts that I have been there for you through worse, yet you do not respect me enough to at least be honest.
Slowly but surely, life is slowly getting back on track after I initially Peter'd it up, There are a lot of changes, but slowly, am cobbling it into what I want it to be and am becoming better for it. There are a lot of changes going on, so things may be a little strained for a while. For those that are staying with me, thank you, you have my deepest respect, greatest sympathy and unending awe. For those that wish nothing more to do with me, I am sorry it has come to this and I think you for being as good to me as you have over the years, and respect your honesty - I am sorry I let you down or caused you grief.
Thank you.
Love to all, reciprocated or no.
-Peter