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It's cold in here, the air conditioning is right next to me and I'm about to freeze z__z Maybe I should go to the computer class. I could concentrate on writing... Oh well, I'll do my best.
Ranting. If you're not interested/ are already on bad mood then don't bother.
I've thought a lot about friends and for some reason we've talked about friendships lately... Mom was wondering last nite about me and my siblings and why we don't have any special best friends, we've never had. I was like, yeaah, after my friend's best friend moved away we became really good friends and I have really, really good friends, I do now, but.. I know what she means. I'm the one who runs from person to person and hangs around with others, not the one who to people come. Or it's mostly like that, I do have best friends. I do, mom, see??! But.. yeah. And I know that I've only got to know most of the people in this school but still with some who are supposed to be my friends (not only at school, with other people the same thing) it's always like, "May I speak with you or am I interrupting something more important? Is it none of my business? Oookies I'll just go away." I know, I understand, we don't know too well and it's none of my business anyway, I'm an overly curious bitch and so on. I know, really. It's just that .. I thought that it would be my business.. just a bit. If I'm worried about something then I thought that I'd have to right to ask. It's not my business! Ack! Go away!
I'm not anxious about it, just thinking.
What I'm anxious about is Diru, bleuh. Apparently that's not my business either, no, they live in another world that's not for my eyes, and all those lucky fangirls who get to see them and the people who get to work with them, their girlfriends(/boyfriends) and family, they live in that world too. I'm stuck in here and probably will always be. Oh well. It's use, worrying about stuff like that. I have exams to come and books to study.
Hanna went to see Absoluuttinen Nollapiste and.. she met Tommi Liimatta and she has a picture of them, smiling nicely side by side, hugging each other. I'm not bitter at all. And she said that I would easily have gotten in, they didn't check the ids even though it was a K-18 gig. A long sigh. This is pathetic, I know there's more to life than music but I haven't found it.
Mood:
Numb
Ranting. If you're not interested/ are already on bad mood then don't bother.
I've thought a lot about friends and for some reason we've talked about friendships lately... Mom was wondering last nite about me and my siblings and why we don't have any special best friends, we've never had. I was like, yeaah, after my friend's best friend moved away we became really good friends and I have really, really good friends, I do now, but.. I know what she means. I'm the one who runs from person to person and hangs around with others, not the one who to people come. Or it's mostly like that, I do have best friends. I do, mom, see??! But.. yeah. And I know that I've only got to know most of the people in this school but still with some who are supposed to be my friends (not only at school, with other people the same thing) it's always like, "May I speak with you or am I interrupting something more important? Is it none of my business? Oookies I'll just go away." I know, I understand, we don't know too well and it's none of my business anyway, I'm an overly curious bitch and so on. I know, really. It's just that .. I thought that it would be my business.. just a bit. If I'm worried about something then I thought that I'd have to right to ask. It's not my business! Ack! Go away!
I'm not anxious about it, just thinking.
What I'm anxious about is Diru, bleuh. Apparently that's not my business either, no, they live in another world that's not for my eyes, and all those lucky fangirls who get to see them and the people who get to work with them, their girlfriends(/boyfriends) and family, they live in that world too. I'm stuck in here and probably will always be. Oh well. It's use, worrying about stuff like that. I have exams to come and books to study.
Hanna went to see Absoluuttinen Nollapiste and.. she met Tommi Liimatta and she has a picture of them, smiling nicely side by side, hugging each other. I'm not bitter at all. And she said that I would easily have gotten in, they didn't check the ids even though it was a K-18 gig. A long sigh. This is pathetic, I know there's more to life than music but I haven't found it.
Mood:
Numb