i dont know what to do...
i dont know what to do anymore... so many people that mean the most to me in my life cannot be themselfs around me.
this has been a big problem for me my whole life... the two people that mean the most to me are intimidated... and its funny how i was just thinking to myself that i wont have this problem with them because they are beautiful people... ionside and out and they know it...
i cant even explain how many friends ive lost because of this... i thought it was different this time... i always thought so many things... but i was CERTAIN that i didnt make these people uncomfortable... im just myself... i feel like such a bad person and i dont need to... i cant help it tho...
can u just IMAGINE what situation that would put me in... u cant IMAGINE how that makes me feel. that the people that mean the most to me are intimidated or whatever. i hate it. i cant stand it! sometimes i cant even stand myself because i dont know what to do... at what point is it too much for me to handle? at what point do i just say i cant have people like that in my life. but in reality i just found out that EVERYONE feels like that around me. i hate it. i wish that my friends wouldnt care... that they would look inside of a person and love them and not care about anything else... i guess that is to much to ask now and days with image and all...
i feel so bad that my friend just called and i didnt even WANT to hang out. he couldnt help but notice that i was sad... i dont know how he knew...
maybe someone could give me some advice because apperantly being my self makes everyone i come across uncomfortable... so i dont know who to be... its at the point that i resent myself because i never would ever make neone feel that way intensionally... infact i hate being told that just being myself makes people insecure to the point that they cant even tell me.. theytell everyone else and eventually i find out that all along they have been feeling like this...
it turns ive been hurting my friends for so long and i didnt even know... tell me what you want me to do...
im out of ideas.
this has been a big problem for me my whole life... the two people that mean the most to me are intimidated... and its funny how i was just thinking to myself that i wont have this problem with them because they are beautiful people... ionside and out and they know it...
i cant even explain how many friends ive lost because of this... i thought it was different this time... i always thought so many things... but i was CERTAIN that i didnt make these people uncomfortable... im just myself... i feel like such a bad person and i dont need to... i cant help it tho...
can u just IMAGINE what situation that would put me in... u cant IMAGINE how that makes me feel. that the people that mean the most to me are intimidated or whatever. i hate it. i cant stand it! sometimes i cant even stand myself because i dont know what to do... at what point is it too much for me to handle? at what point do i just say i cant have people like that in my life. but in reality i just found out that EVERYONE feels like that around me. i hate it. i wish that my friends wouldnt care... that they would look inside of a person and love them and not care about anything else... i guess that is to much to ask now and days with image and all...
i feel so bad that my friend just called and i didnt even WANT to hang out. he couldnt help but notice that i was sad... i dont know how he knew...
maybe someone could give me some advice because apperantly being my self makes everyone i come across uncomfortable... so i dont know who to be... its at the point that i resent myself because i never would ever make neone feel that way intensionally... infact i hate being told that just being myself makes people insecure to the point that they cant even tell me.. theytell everyone else and eventually i find out that all along they have been feeling like this...
it turns ive been hurting my friends for so long and i didnt even know... tell me what you want me to do...
im out of ideas.