PLEASE TAKE TIME AND READ THIS... THE WHOLE THING.
i just want to say that i am soooo sorry to anyone who i was mean to. the reason why i am writing about this now is because i really want to start over,
no more smoking pot
no more being mean
no more saying im fat
no more starving myself
no more being condisending
no more conspiring
no more putting others down
no more talkin shit
no more lieing
no more putting myself down
no more hidden agendas
no more cursing
no more crying at night
no more...
im adding on to this entry because i just found some of the e mails my mom sent my therapist that i never knew about... i could never really know how much i hurt my mom unless i found these... wow i had hurt her so much. i am so sorry for that. i never ment to do the damage i did. shes telling my therapist how much she just wants me to follow the ruels and she just wants me to do good in school and shes asking if thats too much to ask and shit like that. wow i feel like shit! ive never hurt someone that much and i never intended to in my LIFE! to everyone who isnt particularly nice to their parents for no good reason like i was. change as much as u possably can. they are there to help u weather u realize it or not! some day ul feel like i do now and u really dont want to... its not fun.
and im not saying kiss their ass or nething im just saying when they ask u to clean up ur room or something like that, dont argue. just do it and get it over with. parents can make life easy or extremely difficult... make it easy for them, they'l make it easy for u... lifes hard. dont make it harder.
<3 vickee
sorry<3
no more smoking pot
no more being mean
no more saying im fat
no more starving myself
no more being condisending
no more conspiring
no more putting others down
no more talkin shit
no more lieing
no more putting myself down
no more hidden agendas
no more cursing
no more crying at night
no more...
im adding on to this entry because i just found some of the e mails my mom sent my therapist that i never knew about... i could never really know how much i hurt my mom unless i found these... wow i had hurt her so much. i am so sorry for that. i never ment to do the damage i did. shes telling my therapist how much she just wants me to follow the ruels and she just wants me to do good in school and shes asking if thats too much to ask and shit like that. wow i feel like shit! ive never hurt someone that much and i never intended to in my LIFE! to everyone who isnt particularly nice to their parents for no good reason like i was. change as much as u possably can. they are there to help u weather u realize it or not! some day ul feel like i do now and u really dont want to... its not fun.
and im not saying kiss their ass or nething im just saying when they ask u to clean up ur room or something like that, dont argue. just do it and get it over with. parents can make life easy or extremely difficult... make it easy for them, they'l make it easy for u... lifes hard. dont make it harder.
<3 vickee
sorry<3