Open Your Eyes as I shut Mine

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Today is a very early day for me...and just another one....I walk threw my dreams as they come crashing down with no evidence of crashing.... i see beauty in some many people that others wouldn't even think it was beauty....Like these two Lady's I saw on the train the other day....i didn't realize they were blind untill i saw them tring to find the over vent...i asked them if they were and they were the most cheerful and happiest people i have seen in a long time.... they had no worries it was just them two alone in the world traveling with no sight...it was so amazing and they inspired me in ever way i can think of.....they blinded me with there beauty and touched me in no other way that anyone else has....so i try to hold myself up with what beauty i saw in these people but i am falling all over myself....i trip every time and run in to a dead end every other day....I hurt for the beauty that no one else sees in this life.....day end to day out...i try to grasp this all and take it some where with me but all i am doing is watching my self...catch a bad cold that other have passed on.....and this cold is pulling down to where i am weak and just helpless....
i have become vary sad on the inside and i hate it......i know the only way to be happy....is if i want to be happy.........and i try to...but to watch these people in life with anger and no souls it makes me weaker day after day........it is a sickness that i have and it is killing very fast and very painful.....its my soul that weeps for everyone......i guess some one in this world had to get it....i feel this horrible heart break over any wrongful doings....and even from me........as i try to not watch any of this i am torment any ways...........