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i feel pushed to the side by all of my friends. people i consider friends don't add up to being many. money is stressing me out. i had a dream that i could not ride a bike because the front wheel kept turning to the right and i couldnt control it. i could not get where i was going as quickly as i needed to or hoped. i kept getting hurt and just getting back on. maybe not grasping the concept that i could have walked the bike, or because i kept thinking about how i needed to get there swiftly or it was far. exactly what life is. i really need some sort of help, how that comes i do not care.