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I don't really have too much to say at the moment; my life's still as drama-filled as ever, my cousin is still being an annoying prick in general, we *still* haven't quite figured out what we're going to be doing in regards to my dad's lawyer situation, Vince called doctor Sharf yet again so my mom and I are going to go in and see him on Wednesday, and I still feel like shit.
That's all made a little bit better by the fact that I absolutely *love* the NBA playoffs. I also managed to have a conversation with Janelle for the first time in months--at least, one that lasted for more than thirty seconds. :( I really, *really* miss her, but I'm also proud of her for doing what she did. I knew that if I hadn't told her to go ahead, she probably wouldn't have made the choice that she did, and I refuse to be selfish by wishing that things had never changed. I refuse to play the game of 'what if', because I'd be sacrificing her well-being for the sake of my own, and there are far too many people in this world who do that already.
I really don't know where things are headed for me, but I know that I have to do something. I'm hoping that things will start taking shape in the next couple of weeks, so yeah...*shrugs*
That's all made a little bit better by the fact that I absolutely *love* the NBA playoffs. I also managed to have a conversation with Janelle for the first time in months--at least, one that lasted for more than thirty seconds. :( I really, *really* miss her, but I'm also proud of her for doing what she did. I knew that if I hadn't told her to go ahead, she probably wouldn't have made the choice that she did, and I refuse to be selfish by wishing that things had never changed. I refuse to play the game of 'what if', because I'd be sacrificing her well-being for the sake of my own, and there are far too many people in this world who do that already.
I really don't know where things are headed for me, but I know that I have to do something. I'm hoping that things will start taking shape in the next couple of weeks, so yeah...*shrugs*