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so i met a nursing program advisor today.
I am right on track to apply for nursing school in March which if I get A's this semester sets me for acceptance to nursing school next fall.
Rock on. I was so psyched. I can get A's in these classes. If I work my ass off. And I have control over that. I love things I can control for my own future.
I rode my bike there and then rode over to my work (a gym) (no I don't work out right now) and I walked in and a trainer who might as well shoot rainbows out her ass says "You're working out!!" me:" pfft, no" I'm riding my bike around town" But I know they talk about me, the chubby girl, the only one who works there that doesn't work out. And then pity me. the way she said it was like "oh you used the toilet all by yourself, here's a cookie!!" bah
Why? Why do I always have to have a job that test my insecurities. I could control this also. Start working out.
I don't want to.
So get over it Michelle.
I love being on my bike though.
I have really bad pigment blotches from the psoriasis I had a few months ago. I hate it. I look strange. Vanity is wicked. And I have gained a whole new understanding what it must be like to have anything that people stare at when you walk by.
These blotches get crazy dark when I get overheated, while riding bike or working out. It's really sexy.
I was supposed to go camping with Jeff this weekend. But we are both struggling with people not helping us cover shifts. ALthough we are always covering everyone elses adventures.
People suck.
I am going to have my bachelors in nursing in 3.5 years. I am going to have financial freedom. I am going to have the ability to have any adventures. I am ok.
I am right on track to apply for nursing school in March which if I get A's this semester sets me for acceptance to nursing school next fall.
Rock on. I was so psyched. I can get A's in these classes. If I work my ass off. And I have control over that. I love things I can control for my own future.
I rode my bike there and then rode over to my work (a gym) (no I don't work out right now) and I walked in and a trainer who might as well shoot rainbows out her ass says "You're working out!!" me:" pfft, no" I'm riding my bike around town" But I know they talk about me, the chubby girl, the only one who works there that doesn't work out. And then pity me. the way she said it was like "oh you used the toilet all by yourself, here's a cookie!!" bah
Why? Why do I always have to have a job that test my insecurities. I could control this also. Start working out.
I don't want to.
So get over it Michelle.
I love being on my bike though.
I have really bad pigment blotches from the psoriasis I had a few months ago. I hate it. I look strange. Vanity is wicked. And I have gained a whole new understanding what it must be like to have anything that people stare at when you walk by.
These blotches get crazy dark when I get overheated, while riding bike or working out. It's really sexy.
I was supposed to go camping with Jeff this weekend. But we are both struggling with people not helping us cover shifts. ALthough we are always covering everyone elses adventures.
People suck.
I am going to have my bachelors in nursing in 3.5 years. I am going to have financial freedom. I am going to have the ability to have any adventures. I am ok.