My Life As Of 4/8/06

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I absolutely can not wait for Easter....I miss my family so much. I haven't spent time with them all in for-fucking-ever. My cousin is having Easter at his place, our family always gets together for Easter. I have such good memories of it. It's my favorite holiday.

Around Passover time each year, ABC used to show The Ten Commandments. Which is my favorite movie of all time. I first saw it when I was 3, around Easter and Passover on ABC. It really touched my life, and inspired my love for ancient Egypt. This year, however, they are premiering a new made-for-TV movie called The Ten Commandments. And uh, yeah, fuck that. Watching my version of the movie has been a tradition in my family since I was 3. So, I'm boycotting this new, crap The Ten Commandments and watching my The Ten Co
mmandments this year, since I now have it on DVD. FUCK ABC, THOSE BASTARDS!!

Had it out with The Ex-Boyfriend. Oh my God, it was absolutely fantastic. That stupid fucker, I got him so good. It was fucking great. There are no words.

I'm doing a lot better in school. Keeping up with all my classes, staying on top of everything, and managing to have some fun. Which is interesting to me, usually when I get a boyfriend, my grades start to slip and things. But, I was determined to not have that happen this time, so maybe that's why. But anyway, since I've been with Drew....it seems like my studying has actually gotten better. He also gives me the space and time I need to do that, which is wonderful, as well.

My Mama is going through a hard time right now with my Dad. He's just being a total and utter jackass. I think she's going into depression again. She needs to start eating more. She weighs 97 pounds....used to weigh like 120-30. HELLO?! She needs to be eating fatty shit like every 2 hours at least. I don't see how she has the strength to do anything, but she needs to start doing that....and she knows it. But, she won't. I don't understand. She's such a child sometimes. If you know you need to do something, then you do it. You fucking get it done. Got damn....you pull yourself up out of what what ever hole you're in and you fucking do it!!! I feel bad for her, but at the same time I'm disgusted. I don't know what to do about her.

I believe I am falling in love with Drew. I'm trying not to fall fast, and I'm actually succeeding. It's happening slowly, but it is happening. I'm not sure how he feels about this, but I know he has said he is falling for me too. We've had several conversations about this. LOL, he told me the other day he liked everything about me. Of course, I'm all "Like what baby?" And he said "Your views on things, your playfulness, and the way you care for the people close to you." I've never had a guy really recognize those things about me before, only that I'm a hot piece of ass. LOL, which yeah, I am....but, there's so much more to me than that. But, I think I've found a keeper for quite some time (not gonna say "forever" because we've only not even been dating a month, so "forever" at this point would be slightly crazy), and since I have found a keeper....eventually I'm gonna want to take it to the next level. I just want to make sure we're both ready for that to happen before I take that next step.

Speaking of hot ass, aw man.....last night....last fucking night. Holy shit. Squirted 3 inches up in the air. My god, that was incredible. We've been kinda experimenting with the whole sex thing. We've been going at it kind of rough lately, and I haven't been able to get well-lubricated before he goes into me and it's been hurting me. Well, I thought that if we did A LOT of foreplay (We did quite a bit before and it was good, but I need more lubricationd with him b/c his bigger), and then got into the sex very gently and built up with the roughness...it would be easier and feel better for me (and him because I'm wetter inside), before and after. And, sure enough, 3 inch squirter, got him moaning like crazy...yep, think that pretty much confirms it.

OH YEAH!! I MISSED SOMETHING! My infection has cleared up. Turns out I had a kidney, urinary tract and yeast infection all together. Absolutely amazes me. But yeah, apparently I'm allergic to that KY warming gel shit. Never again will I be using that. I need to find out what it was in the lube that fucked me up so bad. What if I'm allergic to all lube? That would suuuuuuuuck. But eh, I guess I could deal with it if I had too.

That is all for now. MISS YOU GUYS!!