the reasons i'm going crazy.
i like you. i really like you. i have for quite a while,
and i think we both know that. but how do you feel?
because that's the only unclear in this whole thing,
and it's been unclear for about a year now.
i'm going out of my head, because at this point i want nothing
more than to no longer care about you in anyway what-so-ever.
you, however, make that impossible for me,
when every time i start getting over it
you always seem to show up,
and tear down all my determined letting go.
more than anything i want this to work,
but given the fact that i seem to not be good enough,
and i seem to be something more convenient than desired,
i've been forcing myself to pretend i don't care.
maybe it's my fault for behaving so cavalier when we're together,
in the way that i always act too cool to care about this thing.
i'm really amazing at hiding my feelings,
but sharing them is harder than anything else.
i don't believe i could handle the trauma
of sharing my feelings, and being let down.
it's all so inconsistent, and all your signals are mixed.
i think this could be absolutely amazing, but i'm doubting
everything more than ever.
in fact, i'm starting to even doubt whether or not i still care.
i really, really like you.
but when you stopped acting like you missed me.
when you stopped needing to see me,
i began to lose faith, i began to look around,
test the waters, and now i'm a little more confused than ever.
but at least, i'm not caught up in only you.
well what i'm saying is,
some how, i guess, i just
stopped missing you.
then again, i guess you can't miss what
was never yours to begin with.
and i think we both know that. but how do you feel?
because that's the only unclear in this whole thing,
and it's been unclear for about a year now.
i'm going out of my head, because at this point i want nothing
more than to no longer care about you in anyway what-so-ever.
you, however, make that impossible for me,
when every time i start getting over it
you always seem to show up,
and tear down all my determined letting go.
more than anything i want this to work,
but given the fact that i seem to not be good enough,
and i seem to be something more convenient than desired,
i've been forcing myself to pretend i don't care.
maybe it's my fault for behaving so cavalier when we're together,
in the way that i always act too cool to care about this thing.
i'm really amazing at hiding my feelings,
but sharing them is harder than anything else.
i don't believe i could handle the trauma
of sharing my feelings, and being let down.
it's all so inconsistent, and all your signals are mixed.
i think this could be absolutely amazing, but i'm doubting
everything more than ever.
in fact, i'm starting to even doubt whether or not i still care.
i really, really like you.
but when you stopped acting like you missed me.
when you stopped needing to see me,
i began to lose faith, i began to look around,
test the waters, and now i'm a little more confused than ever.
but at least, i'm not caught up in only you.
well what i'm saying is,
some how, i guess, i just
stopped missing you.
then again, i guess you can't miss what
was never yours to begin with.