What can you say to someone who wont listen?
where to begin?
i dont really remember the last time i updated but im sure it was sometime last week or early this week. LJ-whoring hasnt been on my to-do list for a while.
i need to let out a huge load (denise will love that comment <---).... so here it goes:
As you all know, I have been single since the 24the and for the first time in Gus-Ely history, it was actually not my fault. I'm not ready to be a mom.. I can be a girlfriend but if you want a mom.. run to the one you have at home.
A couple days later, i found out one of my beloved friends is moving away and i stepped out of my selfish box and realized that this event is worse on her than it could ever be on me. Leaving your friends, your band, your school, your life.. is extremely difficult and having your friend crying with you on the other end of the phone isnt exactly the best way to deal with the situation. So i wiped those tears and right then and there i knew that my goal was to cheer her up.. to prove that i will not forget her and that i will always be here even if she wants to call me crying at crazy hours of the night. That is the definition of a true friend....
If i can say anything about myself it is that when i love (family, friends, someone special).. i love with all of my heart and i make sure that person knows it.
The night after I found out about my friend (tuesday night) i decided i needed to watch The Notebook because i'd heard so many good things about it.. and so i did... and luckily.. i'm the type of person who suffers from an excess amount of enlightening moments... this moment was not an exception...
That movie changed my outlook. Coming out of a failed relationship makes you vulnerable to thoughts that can kill your motivation and self esteem... i guess i had been feeling that way, thinking maybe i'm just not cut out for love or strong connections period. After watching the movie. i realized that everyone has a chance to love. some maybe have multiple chances. Sometimes you find a love that lasts a life time, sometimes you only love for a short time until something happens to bring the two apart... moral of the story is: everyone gets a chance.
So, why spend my time feeling blue because of what i dont have when i can hope that one day ill have a love as deep as the one in the movie. knowing that something like that can happen to me makes my heart do a mass amount of cartwheels.
Understand that everyone will reach that day where they begin understanding life, when they join their hearts with another, when they learn to let go freely with risk of pain and suffering yet understanding that the juice is worth the squeeze....
That's it ladies and gentlemen... understand this about life:
the juice is worth the squeeze
Anyhow.. one thing is certain.. this movie made me cry buckets.
I also think Rachel McAdams is a Phenomenal actress... not to mention.. BEAUTIFUL.
so i have learned my lesson.. feeling lonely wont help the cause.. so i might as well smile.. except now because im exhausted.
nex topic: band camp...
alright 5 days to go.. so far im exhausted but i think we look great. the kids this year are working hard and we have kick ass music and a kick ass visual lol.. im excited.. my last band camp... before fiu's band camp that is.
this is a long enough entry so ill add the lyrics and go to bed
:)
goodnight world.
♥ellez
"Slide"
Even on a day like this when you're crawling on the floor
Reaching for the phone to ring anyone who knows you anymore
It's all right to make mistakes
you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Staring at the same four walls, have you tried to help yourself
The rings around your eyes they don't hide, that you need to get some rest
It's all right to make mistakes
you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Take time to catch your breathe and choose your moment
Don't slide
Even at a time like this when the morning seems so far
Think that pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all
It's all right to make mistakes
you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Take time to catch your breathe and choose your moment
Don't slide
You brought this on yourself
and it's high time you left it there
Lie here and rest your head
and dream of something else instead
Don't slide
i dont really remember the last time i updated but im sure it was sometime last week or early this week. LJ-whoring hasnt been on my to-do list for a while.
i need to let out a huge load (denise will love that comment <---).... so here it goes:
As you all know, I have been single since the 24the and for the first time in Gus-Ely history, it was actually not my fault. I'm not ready to be a mom.. I can be a girlfriend but if you want a mom.. run to the one you have at home.
A couple days later, i found out one of my beloved friends is moving away and i stepped out of my selfish box and realized that this event is worse on her than it could ever be on me. Leaving your friends, your band, your school, your life.. is extremely difficult and having your friend crying with you on the other end of the phone isnt exactly the best way to deal with the situation. So i wiped those tears and right then and there i knew that my goal was to cheer her up.. to prove that i will not forget her and that i will always be here even if she wants to call me crying at crazy hours of the night. That is the definition of a true friend....
If i can say anything about myself it is that when i love (family, friends, someone special).. i love with all of my heart and i make sure that person knows it.
The night after I found out about my friend (tuesday night) i decided i needed to watch The Notebook because i'd heard so many good things about it.. and so i did... and luckily.. i'm the type of person who suffers from an excess amount of enlightening moments... this moment was not an exception...
That movie changed my outlook. Coming out of a failed relationship makes you vulnerable to thoughts that can kill your motivation and self esteem... i guess i had been feeling that way, thinking maybe i'm just not cut out for love or strong connections period. After watching the movie. i realized that everyone has a chance to love. some maybe have multiple chances. Sometimes you find a love that lasts a life time, sometimes you only love for a short time until something happens to bring the two apart... moral of the story is: everyone gets a chance.
So, why spend my time feeling blue because of what i dont have when i can hope that one day ill have a love as deep as the one in the movie. knowing that something like that can happen to me makes my heart do a mass amount of cartwheels.
Understand that everyone will reach that day where they begin understanding life, when they join their hearts with another, when they learn to let go freely with risk of pain and suffering yet understanding that the juice is worth the squeeze....
That's it ladies and gentlemen... understand this about life:
the juice is worth the squeeze
Anyhow.. one thing is certain.. this movie made me cry buckets.
I also think Rachel McAdams is a Phenomenal actress... not to mention.. BEAUTIFUL.
so i have learned my lesson.. feeling lonely wont help the cause.. so i might as well smile.. except now because im exhausted.
nex topic: band camp...
alright 5 days to go.. so far im exhausted but i think we look great. the kids this year are working hard and we have kick ass music and a kick ass visual lol.. im excited.. my last band camp... before fiu's band camp that is.
this is a long enough entry so ill add the lyrics and go to bed
:)
goodnight world.
♥ellez
"Slide"
Even on a day like this when you're crawling on the floor
Reaching for the phone to ring anyone who knows you anymore
It's all right to make mistakes
you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Staring at the same four walls, have you tried to help yourself
The rings around your eyes they don't hide, that you need to get some rest
It's all right to make mistakes
you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Take time to catch your breathe and choose your moment
Don't slide
Even at a time like this when the morning seems so far
Think that pain belongs to you but it's happened to us all
It's all right to make mistakes
you're only human
Inside everybody's hiding something
Take time to catch your breathe and choose your moment
Don't slide
You brought this on yourself
and it's high time you left it there
Lie here and rest your head
and dream of something else instead
Don't slide