im halfway home
so i started drafting for my college essay last night at like 1 am cause i was inspired. and when inspired you go with it cause inspiration in fleeting in my cause. i think i can make it work. its bascially like "you cant go home again" and then itll conclude with "whereever you go there you are" those are really the things that ive learned this summer. that i have to let go of the past and just live in the present.
im leaving for california tomorrow. early. my grandma died a couple days ago. i dont know if i havent dealt with it yet or if im just not that sad because i see it as part of the process. she had an unbelievable life. mainly im just upset that i didnt get to see her one last time. she was an amazing person who in her alzheimers would remind us ALL the time to do everything you want to do in life while you can. she would tell us not to put anything off. i guess one day you find yourself 90 with alzheimers and realize you didnt do those things you wanted to do in your life.
so im going to see my family, to see schools and find as much zen as possible. california relaxes me more than anyother place can.
im leaving for california tomorrow. early. my grandma died a couple days ago. i dont know if i havent dealt with it yet or if im just not that sad because i see it as part of the process. she had an unbelievable life. mainly im just upset that i didnt get to see her one last time. she was an amazing person who in her alzheimers would remind us ALL the time to do everything you want to do in life while you can. she would tell us not to put anything off. i guess one day you find yourself 90 with alzheimers and realize you didnt do those things you wanted to do in your life.
so im going to see my family, to see schools and find as much zen as possible. california relaxes me more than anyother place can.