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sometimes life moves too fast and i just want a saturday to go on forever. and i get angry for being limited by the fact that im 17. i feel like im so close to being an adult, yet so far away. Cause i still cant do the things i want to do. oh well. also, i feel so ambivalent about summer. because while ill have my life back again and my freedom, theo will be gone the whole time. and i really have no idea how im gonna be able to deal with that. especially since ill be in california like the 2 weeks he actually will be here. but thats a far ways off, so i try to put it out of mind. i really didnt think id be able to pull off this relationship thing for this long in the first place and now i cant really imagine myself not with theo. okay moving on
in the more positive thoughts of today, im pretty sure im going to look at schools in Boston over break. sans the parents as long as i can get a few people to come with me. and i also really want to go to NYC so hopefully i can work that out as well. i wish it was break RIGHT NOW. but soon enough. i feel like before we know it, spring break will be here.
in the more positive thoughts of today, im pretty sure im going to look at schools in Boston over break. sans the parents as long as i can get a few people to come with me. and i also really want to go to NYC so hopefully i can work that out as well. i wish it was break RIGHT NOW. but soon enough. i feel like before we know it, spring break will be here.