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ive been in such a weird/bad/tired mood and i dont want to be. and i dont know why i would be. but i just am. thats the worst. when you cant even fix it cause theres nothing wrong but everythings wrong. all i wanted to do tonight was sit on the couch with some mint chocolate chip ice cream and watch sex and the city. which leads to problem number two: my sex and the city addiction. ive seriously watched over ten hours in the past week. my parents think im a freak. which i guess i am at times, but not because of sex and the city.
theres so many things i want to do but i have no drive to do them. so all my saturdays are insignificant and i dont remember them. and all the nights seem the same too.
i think its just being here that bothers me. i want to move away to NYC and get an apartment and live on my own schedule. and not have to see people when my mom doesnt need the car. or have to stay home when my parents are going out and my brothers lonely. or have to leave a warm, comfortable bed to go write essays. i can just sleep when i want and eat when i want and live when i want.
theres so many things i want to do but i have no drive to do them. so all my saturdays are insignificant and i dont remember them. and all the nights seem the same too.
i think its just being here that bothers me. i want to move away to NYC and get an apartment and live on my own schedule. and not have to see people when my mom doesnt need the car. or have to stay home when my parents are going out and my brothers lonely. or have to leave a warm, comfortable bed to go write essays. i can just sleep when i want and eat when i want and live when i want.