Lifes A Fuckin' Bitch
You know when things finally start to look up something bad has to happen.. Regardless of the fact Jamie and I are no longer together we are still great friends and I love being in her company. I love living with her,I love holdin her when we go to sleep.I love everything here.. I get a long great with her Step-mom and even her dad.. I don't get yelled at here for nothing I don't get the shit smacked outta me.I dont have to take care of two boys that arnt my kids.No matter how much I love those kids They ARNT MINE or my responsability.Yet somepeople are trying to make me feel bad for leaving my mom and them with Joey.. Im only 17 and I didnt have a childhood. Its not my fault she is letting this situation get worse and worse. I dont feel like I have a *HUGE* burdon on my shoulders anymore cuz I dont have to be the mom.I get to live my life.I dont have to walk around on egg shells.The one person I thought would understand this my father doesnt..He wants me home.Although I love and miss him dearly I couldnt take being home right now. I need to be way and I dont want this to end yet as I kno it will.I lost Jamie once and Im gunna lose what I have left of her..Shes the only thing right now that is keeping me sane..Shes there for me she understands me...If my dad gets what he wants and I do go home it will be to turn around and get put in the hospital that way there I wont have to put up with my so called family and friends bullshit.. As for my friends in Maine..Cheryl is getting worse and Heather well I don't know if I fucked our friendship up for good or not..So To everyone in maine who said they were my friends besides Erica of course and heatherGO FUCK YOURSELF!!!!