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i've gotten so used to feeling like i was being put first... like i was a priority.
but at the moment, i feel as wanted as a dead fly in a salad.
i feel like i could spill forth a bucketload of tears right now, but i won't let them come.
i hate this feeling... i hadn't felt it in so long, but now it feels like it's happening more and more often.
what is going wrong?
i wonder if i will EVER be good enough to deserve someone's full feelings, to be put above the rest.
i wonder if it's something that i've done.
or is this the beginning of the end to all of your past relationships?
make a girl feel like she's on top of the world, then kick it out from under her?
i don't get it... i don't feel like i've done anything wrong.
what hurts the most is that i've opened up to you in ways i didn't think i could... to anyone.
and now i just feel like it was all for nothing... worthless.
i feel like i am losing you... and myself.
it fucking hurts more than words could ever describe.
but at the moment, i feel as wanted as a dead fly in a salad.
i feel like i could spill forth a bucketload of tears right now, but i won't let them come.
i hate this feeling... i hadn't felt it in so long, but now it feels like it's happening more and more often.
what is going wrong?
i wonder if i will EVER be good enough to deserve someone's full feelings, to be put above the rest.
i wonder if it's something that i've done.
or is this the beginning of the end to all of your past relationships?
make a girl feel like she's on top of the world, then kick it out from under her?
i don't get it... i don't feel like i've done anything wrong.
what hurts the most is that i've opened up to you in ways i didn't think i could... to anyone.
and now i just feel like it was all for nothing... worthless.
i feel like i am losing you... and myself.
it fucking hurts more than words could ever describe.