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i wish i loved to read, but i hate it to so much =/. thats 1 of my biggest problems URGHHHH
so today was school. not too bad. not too much hw this week. yesterday was yuth and a lot of fun and we sang and talked about worship =) it was really good actually
i want to go on a cruise so bad. senior year anyone? a whole bunch of frends on a boat with free food and a place to sleep and stay up all nite and do whatever, go to the gym, get a massage, get ur nails done, relax, get a tan, shop around, go to a different countries and ebaches with the best sand and most beautiful water, get dressed up jus to eat dinner and for the fun of it. meet some new people and spend a week with them. bond. have a great time. swim in the pools. ahh and eveyrthin else. i WILL go on one someday and senior year sounds way too perfect for me =)
so 2morro is mini golfing. should be a lot of fun. saturday is my cousins bday party. shes 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! geesh i cant beleive it. shes growin up way tooo fast. so im gonna go swimmen at garfield then im off to my cousins suprise bridal shower sometime that day also.
i dont want to grow up. but im so excited for everythin thats gonna happen in life, jus have no clue what its gonne be. but im gettin scared for sum reason. I DUNNO
ok didnt the girl who died from columbine know she was gonna die soon and like wrote it in her journal sayin "God i know you are going to take me soon yada yada yada" and stuff. like im kinda scarin myself because i cant think of the future for me and as much as i wanna do things like get married and have kids and fall in love and go to college and be sumthin i worked hard for, i cant pic myself doin it all and with that 1 person so im like thinkin "well what if its not meant for me and im gonna be taken away before all that?". im such a loser i cant stand it but i think about stuff and it makes me so upset cuz i get all worked up about gay things like this. im jus cluecles about everythin and i jus wanna be able to picture it all and know that its gonna happen but maybe im jus bein stubborn by wanting it all when i mite not need it and maybe its ontall meant for me, virginia. who knwos for right now i dunno wat im riten. but i needa shower
so today was school. not too bad. not too much hw this week. yesterday was yuth and a lot of fun and we sang and talked about worship =) it was really good actually
i want to go on a cruise so bad. senior year anyone? a whole bunch of frends on a boat with free food and a place to sleep and stay up all nite and do whatever, go to the gym, get a massage, get ur nails done, relax, get a tan, shop around, go to a different countries and ebaches with the best sand and most beautiful water, get dressed up jus to eat dinner and for the fun of it. meet some new people and spend a week with them. bond. have a great time. swim in the pools. ahh and eveyrthin else. i WILL go on one someday and senior year sounds way too perfect for me =)
so 2morro is mini golfing. should be a lot of fun. saturday is my cousins bday party. shes 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! geesh i cant beleive it. shes growin up way tooo fast. so im gonna go swimmen at garfield then im off to my cousins suprise bridal shower sometime that day also.
i dont want to grow up. but im so excited for everythin thats gonna happen in life, jus have no clue what its gonne be. but im gettin scared for sum reason. I DUNNO
ok didnt the girl who died from columbine know she was gonna die soon and like wrote it in her journal sayin "God i know you are going to take me soon yada yada yada" and stuff. like im kinda scarin myself because i cant think of the future for me and as much as i wanna do things like get married and have kids and fall in love and go to college and be sumthin i worked hard for, i cant pic myself doin it all and with that 1 person so im like thinkin "well what if its not meant for me and im gonna be taken away before all that?". im such a loser i cant stand it but i think about stuff and it makes me so upset cuz i get all worked up about gay things like this. im jus cluecles about everythin and i jus wanna be able to picture it all and know that its gonna happen but maybe im jus bein stubborn by wanting it all when i mite not need it and maybe its ontall meant for me, virginia. who knwos for right now i dunno wat im riten. but i needa shower