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i havent updated in a long time. the long weekend and easter was very good. i had an awesum time. especially easter and serving and even though i had to wake up early, i liked it. and settin up saturday was also fun. i drove all the way to church sunday morning and more than that cuz i was already driving for like 6-7 mins wen i realized i forgot my muffins! n had to go all the way back to get them and then drive all over again to church
i hate complaining on this thing but i gues its where i can write and whatever. but lately ive jus felt like crap and i dont know why. i have nothing to be sad about and i have everythin in the world but ive jus been so sad lately and moody. im fine one minute and in school but then wen i get home and like at night before i go to bed i jus like start thinkin about everythin n start cryin. i dont kno whats wrong because i have so much to be ahppy about but im jus bummin. and it seems like i dont care about anythin anymore. like last year i used to care about things and now its jus like even for school i roll outa bed and just go, come home and do homework. thats like my life. ive been so tired lately, and thats aggravating too when all i wanna do is jus sit around. my life is so boring and im jus getting so sick of it and i wanna change things and i know that i can i jus needa be determined and i dont have the determination at all. i dont participate in anythin at school and then theres jus every1 whos all best frends in my school and r the president/vice president or in the office thingys or play sports and stay after and know all the teachers and talk to every1 and ahve a bunch of people they are all friends w/. the life i wanna live isnt realistic where everythin is perfect and stuff. and ya i have like friends i see on weekends and my best frend lives downstairs from me but like its not anythin like what other people have. i dont have nearly as many frends as my brother has and it jus stinx. and especially in school. all my friends r basically not in my school or city besides jess jen and disha. i only see disha in school and jen sometimes here and there n its jus so dumb. i dont have jus any guy frends (not like i need any but i feel like the biggest loser). i dont have the clique where every1 hangs out everyday. i jus dont even know anymore.im nto even friends with the people i used to be with anymore either and i may not say anythin but it bugs me.
i dunno im done
i hate complaining on this thing but i gues its where i can write and whatever. but lately ive jus felt like crap and i dont know why. i have nothing to be sad about and i have everythin in the world but ive jus been so sad lately and moody. im fine one minute and in school but then wen i get home and like at night before i go to bed i jus like start thinkin about everythin n start cryin. i dont kno whats wrong because i have so much to be ahppy about but im jus bummin. and it seems like i dont care about anythin anymore. like last year i used to care about things and now its jus like even for school i roll outa bed and just go, come home and do homework. thats like my life. ive been so tired lately, and thats aggravating too when all i wanna do is jus sit around. my life is so boring and im jus getting so sick of it and i wanna change things and i know that i can i jus needa be determined and i dont have the determination at all. i dont participate in anythin at school and then theres jus every1 whos all best frends in my school and r the president/vice president or in the office thingys or play sports and stay after and know all the teachers and talk to every1 and ahve a bunch of people they are all friends w/. the life i wanna live isnt realistic where everythin is perfect and stuff. and ya i have like friends i see on weekends and my best frend lives downstairs from me but like its not anythin like what other people have. i dont have nearly as many frends as my brother has and it jus stinx. and especially in school. all my friends r basically not in my school or city besides jess jen and disha. i only see disha in school and jen sometimes here and there n its jus so dumb. i dont have jus any guy frends (not like i need any but i feel like the biggest loser). i dont have the clique where every1 hangs out everyday. i jus dont even know anymore.im nto even friends with the people i used to be with anymore either and i may not say anythin but it bugs me.
i dunno im done