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[_on_my_own]

i'm done with college. i really don't care anymore. i tired of disappointment. and my head is killing from this migraine that i have had for the past three days. i'm done with college. i'm done with musical theater. i'm gonna go to necco and then just leave with bryan for japan and get the fuck away from here.i'm so tired of being here. living in the house. i wish i could treally kill my dad but that would only make life worse.ehhhhhhh i HATE HIM SO MUCH!err how i wish i could kill so much! it would make so much of my pain go away... why does he still have to live... i hope his diabetes kills hikm soon and no i don't care if i sound crazy or a bitch cuz i hope THE FUCKER DIES A PAINFUL PAINFUL DEATH! oh well that's life i guess full of hopeless dreams that will never come true. everybody always told me i would be a start and that people would see my talent but all they see is a three digit number on a stupid test. i wish i wasn't so fucking stupid. everyone is so smart around me and i hate it and i just wanna cry but i have already cried today after getting 2 rejection letters in one day. that's enough for me. well i am going to go find something to do to try to get my mind off of this. lader.

ù¥» hahah that is my name in chinese haha suckers i rock you suck. god i am such a fag. laders