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I don't even write in this thing anymore but I need to get this all out. I guess I just feel empty and unsure of what to do. I want to be with him so bad but we fight too much. I know that everyone thinks we shouldn't be together and I'm "better off without him" but I don't care what they think because I know how I feel. I HATE that I can't get over certain things that make me mad. I know what I want to happen but I don't think he cares anymore. I put him through so much crap and honestly wouldn't blame him if he never talked to me again. He said that he was done trying and didn't have the patience but I hope that will change. Maybe our breaking up will be a good thing but I'm scared that it's permanent. I don't want to lose him.