(no subject)
today was supposed to be megan and justin day. guess what. it didnt happen. it was supposed to be a day of making up and making out.. and i planned it all out. all down the drain.
his friend has asked him to go to a celtics game and i mean, well its the celtics and at first i was wicked pissed but then i said he could go. trying to be the "good" girlfriend i thought i was being.
then all i got was yelled at. and i asked not to yell. so he kept yelling. and told me to just leave. so i told him to get the hell out of my car so i could leave if he wanted me to so bad.
he told me.. and i quote" fine, FUCK YOU! YOURE SUCH AN ASSHOLE. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" and slammed my door so hard i thought it was going to fall off.
so i left. crying of course on the way home. i NEVER CRY and anyone who knows me i doubt has seen me cry.. or maybe once or so.
so i got home and cried to my mom. i dont discuss ever what goes on when me and justin fight.
then i told her i just needed to get out and clear my mind so i called jack and asked her if we could hang out so we did and i got so much off my chest i dont think i have ever said to anyone.
so now im basicly hanging on a limb and im so stuck. i could crawl back down very carefully and try not to fall... or i could just jump and never climb that tree again.
i cant just throw four years down the drain. he gave up so much for me and we were so serious. maybe were just not as compatable anymore. maybe it just was too good to be true. maybe the person i fell in love with was justin in 8TH GRADE not justin in 11TH GRADE.
ugh. i just need to clear out my soul
maybe i should take up yoga, ice cream, hot tubs, and movies for the night.
his friend has asked him to go to a celtics game and i mean, well its the celtics and at first i was wicked pissed but then i said he could go. trying to be the "good" girlfriend i thought i was being.
then all i got was yelled at. and i asked not to yell. so he kept yelling. and told me to just leave. so i told him to get the hell out of my car so i could leave if he wanted me to so bad.
he told me.. and i quote" fine, FUCK YOU! YOURE SUCH AN ASSHOLE. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" and slammed my door so hard i thought it was going to fall off.
so i left. crying of course on the way home. i NEVER CRY and anyone who knows me i doubt has seen me cry.. or maybe once or so.
so i got home and cried to my mom. i dont discuss ever what goes on when me and justin fight.
then i told her i just needed to get out and clear my mind so i called jack and asked her if we could hang out so we did and i got so much off my chest i dont think i have ever said to anyone.
so now im basicly hanging on a limb and im so stuck. i could crawl back down very carefully and try not to fall... or i could just jump and never climb that tree again.
i cant just throw four years down the drain. he gave up so much for me and we were so serious. maybe were just not as compatable anymore. maybe it just was too good to be true. maybe the person i fell in love with was justin in 8TH GRADE not justin in 11TH GRADE.
ugh. i just need to clear out my soul
maybe i should take up yoga, ice cream, hot tubs, and movies for the night.