Venting Entry?

[_ohh_noo]

alright so..

if you hate me.. good.. you dont have too like me.. no body is making you have to like me or deal with me.. as for me.. i dont hate anybody.. yes sure there are a few people i dislike.. but honestly.. im not going to go out of my way to make you feel like shit.. make you cry everyday after school.. make you want to hate your life..

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[__ambz__]

i truely hope this is the one comment you really listen too, i have experienced everything you are going through and honestly more. i have ran away from schools, girls, guys, u name it i have done it. i have been called a slut, i have had nasty rumors spread about me, i have been insecure, i have had girls turn around and hurt me... i know exactly how it feels because it was me last year and i guess in a way u are sort of filling my shoes and im sorry for that because u sound exactly how i did. i hated school i hated my life and all the people in it so i made probably the biggest mistake of my life and switched schools because i felt like i would get another chance people would be different you know people would understand me. i also seriously got involved with drugs as well because i couldnt realize who i was and i let others perceptions of me get into my head. I have come to realize that i am a beautiful amazing person and the people in my life who truly see that are still in my life because they enjoy who i am. i like to have fun and i like to stand up for who i am whether people want to hear it or not. i have come to find myself in the last six months and the people i want to matter. this year, i haven't been the party animal or girl getting drunk and making out with boys, and i haven't been the most popluar girl, honeslty i have about two very close true friends, i have a wonderful boyfriend who doesnt go to my school and doesnt really know anyone that i do because i like having privacy. he doesnt know the rumors about me or what i have done in the past really. the false influences or rumors that ruined part of my high school life. i let it get to me so much that in the end people won the battle inside of my head instead of me. it was hard to overcome all the shit that had happened all the lies and all the stupid little girls that stood in my way, but i realized none of these people or things will matter or follow u after high school and u have to learn to love yourself. i went to rehab for my drug problem, i met a wonderful guy, and i started working out and perfecting my body because that is something that NO ONE has control over but me. no girl or rumor can change my body and that is something that keeps me so convident that no one else can stand in my way of. i go to school, i get through it, i come home, hang out with the people i enjoy and play basketball.
i want u to find urself and look in the mirror and see that those stupid girls have nothing on u
xoxo amber
good luck