something isn't right here

[_ohgoddamnit]

I got home a couple of hours ago... finally. I've been gone for days. I haven't slept in days. There is so much going on in my head. I'm so confused in my life right now. I'm really motivated to forge ahead and do something right, but I'm starting to question who I am and where I'm going. Maybe these feelings are just being amplified because I haven't slept in days. I think it's time for more therapy. It's definitely time to be single or kinda single. I'm having a really hard time with this pseudo relationship crap. I just talked to Amanda for the first time in like four days. I think I may be going on a date with a guy this week. I'm not sure why. I think maybe because I'm feeling like I'm on the wrong path. Something isn't right here.

We had our first game Saturday. Too bad none of my friends made it. The parties were fun. The conversations were great. I feel more fulfilled right now than I have in awhile. I really love my team.