peach star
gotta be honest about something....i wish i was still an emo/punk kid and went to shows like every other day. i always used to feel so badass. now i feel like a lump most of the time.
and i want to do something great with my life. i think i will. just not yet, not right now. but one day, yes. one day when i finish this crap they call organized education and when i can carve my own path into life rather than strive for a letter grade (which i suck at anyway). when that happens i will do something great.
things really do change in life. things that consume life one day might never enter a person's mind the next. it's like...when/how do we know what things actually deserve the time and effort we give them?...i really dont think it is at all possible to know, we'll never know. things like that are all based on emotion and sentiment and who ever defined emotion and sentiment on definite/stable terms? i believe that no one ever did or ever will. i am quite sure of that fact. so when life is based on pure sentiment, do human actions/behaviors/feelings really matter at all in the bigger scheme (if there is a bigger scheme)? and if there is no bigger scheme, does that mean that the things we do and the feelings we so STRONGLY feel really have no purpose at all, besides that of contributing to the earthly purpose that eventually dies out anyway? WHAT IS THE POINT OF LIFE? really, that is all im trying to get across here. should everyone merely have a good time and not worry about emotions? should we all tuck away our feelings and have a heart of steel and just live to have a fabulous and fun life and thats all? or is there more? or should we strive to be good and care about the things that we care for and the people that we care for? it feels right to continue the latter....but is that bc it's all we humans know?
hmmmmmm....holy crap what a load i just wrote. totally ignore that ramble if u wish. dont know where i went to for those couple of minutes!
i gotta go start another book for my last final on wednesday! yep thats right, WEDNESDAY! im stuck studying until wednesday! grr! =)
and i want to do something great with my life. i think i will. just not yet, not right now. but one day, yes. one day when i finish this crap they call organized education and when i can carve my own path into life rather than strive for a letter grade (which i suck at anyway). when that happens i will do something great.
things really do change in life. things that consume life one day might never enter a person's mind the next. it's like...when/how do we know what things actually deserve the time and effort we give them?...i really dont think it is at all possible to know, we'll never know. things like that are all based on emotion and sentiment and who ever defined emotion and sentiment on definite/stable terms? i believe that no one ever did or ever will. i am quite sure of that fact. so when life is based on pure sentiment, do human actions/behaviors/feelings really matter at all in the bigger scheme (if there is a bigger scheme)? and if there is no bigger scheme, does that mean that the things we do and the feelings we so STRONGLY feel really have no purpose at all, besides that of contributing to the earthly purpose that eventually dies out anyway? WHAT IS THE POINT OF LIFE? really, that is all im trying to get across here. should everyone merely have a good time and not worry about emotions? should we all tuck away our feelings and have a heart of steel and just live to have a fabulous and fun life and thats all? or is there more? or should we strive to be good and care about the things that we care for and the people that we care for? it feels right to continue the latter....but is that bc it's all we humans know?
hmmmmmm....holy crap what a load i just wrote. totally ignore that ramble if u wish. dont know where i went to for those couple of minutes!
i gotta go start another book for my last final on wednesday! yep thats right, WEDNESDAY! im stuck studying until wednesday! grr! =)