geez, this feels good
God is awesome.
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Besides that...not much.
Work has been treating me well. I've had the chance to meet nice people and share time with them, which is always nice. I just recently got internet back, was offline for a month..hehe...that was really bad...I have to check my email daily...and my bills depend on me being online...since I make all my payments online, dont know how to do it the other way...so I couldn't pay my bills last month.
but it's all good now. BIG YAY to this one coming, I paid off ALL my credit cards today...so a big, big, big burden has been taken out of my back...Thank God...now I only have my cellphone bill...which isn't too much. After this month I'll be able to really save money and finally buy the Canon 20D and a nice dress for my sister's wedding.
Haha... it took me 4 times to say three today...I'd say tree instead of three hahaha...the lady I was mixing paint for asked me how much the 5-gallon bucket of paint was and I said one hundred and tree...at the fourth try I finally got my mouth to work right. and she's like what was all that tree talk about...ahhhhhhhhh geez was I embarrassed.
I've realized sometimes I put all my focus in ONE goal...and it becomes a god...kinda...and everything else becomes 2nd, 3rd. 4th... because I am working for THAT one goal...tha has already become first interest..then I think..and realize yet again that God is the one supposed to have control over me & the things I do...and that everything I do should be leveled so that He is first in all and for all I work for he's key...
So he takes control, when I let things go...at that moment everything else seems worthless. Everything becomes meaningless yet it feels so good..to not worry about life ...I feel this incredible peace and this deep breath takes in...the big burdens dropped down, that 30 tons loaded truck instantly becomes a feather.
oh but it feels so good...I just feel so good. No matter how many battles I have yet to fight...or how many trials I have yet to pass....all I know is that...everything is meaningless. and in my dictionary, that's a good thing.