i dont no wat to do... i think im falling in love with you
well i havent updated this thing muc... i guess u can say i have been relle busy&& life hasnt slowed down. so i guess heres my major update that makes me feel sum wat sain
` - - > well i got a cell phone... && im starting to get annoyed with it.. buh hey thats life. my sister graduates in a lil more then 3 months.. its on May 20th. im soo worried about her... she jus doesnt no it yet. -lol- im starting to become preppy again && i dont no if it is a bad thng or not... i maean i love my dark lil life... buh wen i am the way i am.. i feel as though i dont have any secerts to myself soo im gonna change all of that. -yes i no that i am weird- im relle confused about life... i gave ^ on a guy again. like i always do...
and my list of regrets of giving up go to...
` - - > omar, mike, phil, jonni, tommy, oscar, alex, jermery, logan, derek, && that is just from this year alone. -wow i am pathic-
but wat bothers me the most.. is how life can get soo easy && in a blink of any eye.. your hole world is flipped upside down && u cant control it nor stop it. and the one thng that bothers me the most is the 2 individual guys that i like... that have no idea that i even like them. -thats how good of a secertive person i am- these 2 gentle men are absolutly amazing! from personality all the way to looks. the only problem is... i no in my heart i cant be with either of them... they are complete oppisites from one another && i have no idea why i am attracted to them. on 1 hand u have a gentle, smart, quiet, sensitive, charming, loving, loyal, attrative guy that is full of life; yet some how scared of what can happen. and on the other hand u have a guy that is a charmer, difficult, attractive, loud, sexual, horny, full of life, isnt afriad of what may come, and isnt bound to the thoughts of what it. there both completely different but their personailties are wat draws me to them. the person they are wen i am around them is wat has me hooked and i no deep down inside... this is all jus a fairy tale && nothng could ever come of it, but yet i long for it. i long to be used by them.. to be with them.. though i no all ill have in the end is heart break && tears. but i want it. and i dont no why. i have no clue wat makes me wat them soo badly. i guess the statement "you always want what you cant have" applies to my problem and if i ever revealed the names of these guys... i would b bitched at, yelled at, && left alone for me too thnk about how stupid i am. -wow i let my friends control me too muc-
but this is the end.. of this pathic lil update...
love always
-the-broken-mind-
` - - > well i got a cell phone... && im starting to get annoyed with it.. buh hey thats life. my sister graduates in a lil more then 3 months.. its on May 20th. im soo worried about her... she jus doesnt no it yet. -lol- im starting to become preppy again && i dont no if it is a bad thng or not... i maean i love my dark lil life... buh wen i am the way i am.. i feel as though i dont have any secerts to myself soo im gonna change all of that. -yes i no that i am weird- im relle confused about life... i gave ^ on a guy again. like i always do...
and my list of regrets of giving up go to...
` - - > omar, mike, phil, jonni, tommy, oscar, alex, jermery, logan, derek, && that is just from this year alone. -wow i am pathic-
but wat bothers me the most.. is how life can get soo easy && in a blink of any eye.. your hole world is flipped upside down && u cant control it nor stop it. and the one thng that bothers me the most is the 2 individual guys that i like... that have no idea that i even like them. -thats how good of a secertive person i am- these 2 gentle men are absolutly amazing! from personality all the way to looks. the only problem is... i no in my heart i cant be with either of them... they are complete oppisites from one another && i have no idea why i am attracted to them. on 1 hand u have a gentle, smart, quiet, sensitive, charming, loving, loyal, attrative guy that is full of life; yet some how scared of what can happen. and on the other hand u have a guy that is a charmer, difficult, attractive, loud, sexual, horny, full of life, isnt afriad of what may come, and isnt bound to the thoughts of what it. there both completely different but their personailties are wat draws me to them. the person they are wen i am around them is wat has me hooked and i no deep down inside... this is all jus a fairy tale && nothng could ever come of it, but yet i long for it. i long to be used by them.. to be with them.. though i no all ill have in the end is heart break && tears. but i want it. and i dont no why. i have no clue wat makes me wat them soo badly. i guess the statement "you always want what you cant have" applies to my problem and if i ever revealed the names of these guys... i would b bitched at, yelled at, && left alone for me too thnk about how stupid i am. -wow i let my friends control me too muc-
but this is the end.. of this pathic lil update...
love always
-the-broken-mind-