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I attempted to dye my hair green this morning... I didn't leave it in long enough so it's only kinda dyed...
I retired my tounge ring last night... Yeah I decided that it doesn't mean to me what it used to..
I reopened my left lob piercing... I have a green skull earing in now..
Sometimes I feel like there's no point in getting up in the morning, I mean why should I? I suck at school and I have a family thats fake, I mean fake smiles, fake laughter, fake caring...
My art is crap anymore, I haven't been published in forever. I keep starting novels only to never finish...
I have no social life, literally, I go to the same fucking house every day and every weekend, my ex's how lame is that...
I don't ever get to see my bf, and well thats it, that's my social life right there... my current and my ex, end of story.
God, I hate life..
Oh it gets better, I finally broke down and talked to my mother, yeah that was nice, everyone should enjoy a talk with their mother about birthcontrol, and then ofcourse my mother had to ask if I was a virgin, whish ofcourse I'm not, like an idiot I didn't wait and now I get to wish I had, I love Travis to death, and Shawn can go to hell... Yeah she just looked at me, said nothing just looked at me...
There's fear behind this smile,
Take my shoes,
And walk a mile.
There's anger in this laugh,
Take my ears and here it echo.
Sometimes I'm not as I seem,
But it's easy to stand,
When you want to lean.
^Thats how I feel most of the time...
I am content for now,
In your arms,
I am content.
I am content today,
Though tomorrow may never come,
Just today is enough.
In this moment, I'm content,
With you I can pretend,
That I am well.
Tomorrow,
Tomorrow is another day,
Though it never comes,
Is what I pray...
^Thats how I feel with Travis, he still likes his ex, and he's not sure which he wants more... So everyday could be our last..
Why do you do this?
Why do I care?
Sometimes I wonder,
How is this fair.
I love you to death,
But death sometimes better,
I hate you,
Without so many letters.
You kill me and yet I rise,
Just to see,
You with my own eyes.
I can't cry anymore,
The tears are dry,
I can't feel anymore,
My head, my heart,
Always at war.
^And that's what I wrote for Teisha
These are pretty old, the first two just make sense for me right now...
I retired my tounge ring last night... Yeah I decided that it doesn't mean to me what it used to..
I reopened my left lob piercing... I have a green skull earing in now..
Sometimes I feel like there's no point in getting up in the morning, I mean why should I? I suck at school and I have a family thats fake, I mean fake smiles, fake laughter, fake caring...
My art is crap anymore, I haven't been published in forever. I keep starting novels only to never finish...
I have no social life, literally, I go to the same fucking house every day and every weekend, my ex's how lame is that...
I don't ever get to see my bf, and well thats it, that's my social life right there... my current and my ex, end of story.
God, I hate life..
Oh it gets better, I finally broke down and talked to my mother, yeah that was nice, everyone should enjoy a talk with their mother about birthcontrol, and then ofcourse my mother had to ask if I was a virgin, whish ofcourse I'm not, like an idiot I didn't wait and now I get to wish I had, I love Travis to death, and Shawn can go to hell... Yeah she just looked at me, said nothing just looked at me...
There's fear behind this smile,
Take my shoes,
And walk a mile.
There's anger in this laugh,
Take my ears and here it echo.
Sometimes I'm not as I seem,
But it's easy to stand,
When you want to lean.
^Thats how I feel most of the time...
I am content for now,
In your arms,
I am content.
I am content today,
Though tomorrow may never come,
Just today is enough.
In this moment, I'm content,
With you I can pretend,
That I am well.
Tomorrow,
Tomorrow is another day,
Though it never comes,
Is what I pray...
^Thats how I feel with Travis, he still likes his ex, and he's not sure which he wants more... So everyday could be our last..
Why do you do this?
Why do I care?
Sometimes I wonder,
How is this fair.
I love you to death,
But death sometimes better,
I hate you,
Without so many letters.
You kill me and yet I rise,
Just to see,
You with my own eyes.
I can't cry anymore,
The tears are dry,
I can't feel anymore,
My head, my heart,
Always at war.
^And that's what I wrote for Teisha
These are pretty old, the first two just make sense for me right now...