I know I'll find you, but I'm not looking for you.
Finally got 25 comments, so I can update again. =p
I went to my Aunt's house for Easter today. It was craaazzzy, but we didn't do much. I ate ham and a little piece of bread for 'dinner.' haha. My little cousin, Irie, who's like 4, looks at me and goes, "Wow Lindsay...you look very beautiful today." I almost pissed myself, it was so cute. I was saying "Chicken" all day to them, and I asked them when we were sitting down, "Who do I love?" and they both said, at almost the exact same time..."Chicken." haha it was hysterical. They're so cute. <33
I hate NS. I hate 7th grade. I hate everyone who makes 7th grade so horrible. I hate school. I hate everything about waking up. I hate life.
And it was reality that hit me this afternoon. That Ben and I are done, and there's nothing left except a friendship. That Jon hates me, and we aren't friends, (which doesn't exactly bother me...but it's starting to get to me.) That life isn't the same as it used to be. That I suddenly hate someone who's one of my friends, *It's not you cause they don't have internet*. That if I was offered the chance to be anyone I wanted to, with no consequences, I'd choose someone who's dead. That I can't stand myself. That my best friend is gone, and I miss them like hell. That every promise ever made to me has been broken.
"Lie to me," she whispered.
"I love you" he said.
Ah, Chris, gotta love ya. He just brought back one of the funniest memories. We were at the movies, with Carissa, and I believe it was...ugh I can't say it...GARRETT! (Eeeew) and it was around X-mas time. A guy walks in with his friend, and he had a Santa hat on. So he goes, "Ho! Ho! Ho!" and his friend goes, "Yeah, you're right. You are a hoe, hoe, hoe!" Chris was almost purple, he was laughing so hard. <33 Chris is so fun to be around, and I miss hanging out with him...He's the best, and he'll be one of my best friends, always. <33 *Atleast he smells better, now* =p jk. Soooooo many good times with that kid, I'll tell ya. When we went to his party at his lake house during the summer...hahaha. We wen't tubing, and I went with Chris, and I started falling off (cause Chris was HOGGING the whole damn thing) so I grabbed his arm and started screaming cause I thought I was going to die. Omg, good times. And when Chris let go when we were going around a corner, and he skipped across the water like a rock. hahaha. And when we were on the boat, and we went over a wave, thing, and Angeleah, Carissa, and I, (who happened to be sitting in front of the boat) got soaked after the boat flooded. I love you guys sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! If it's yellow let it mellow;; If it's brown...FLUSH IT DOWN!
How you promised that you could get mad at me...but you'd NEVER HATE me. And how you promised we'd always be best friends, and we'd always be there for eachother. After you promised you wouldn't break my heart. All those times you'd promise you'd call back in 5 minutes, and never did. How you promised me that I could always talk to you, and that I could trust you with my life. How you promised me you would give me a hug the last time I'd probably ever see you. How you never had any intentions of hurting me. How you'd always be my crying shoulder...but then you never were. I don't miss you anymore. I don't miss the fact we aren't friend. I just miss you calling me every day...and I miss letting myself love you.
Okay. I'm Out. Chris want's to read what I wrote.
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