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[_nychthemeron]

today hurts

tomorrow's gonna hurt

i think i'll round off thursday with some good inhibition

i'd do it sooner if i had the guts. i don't. i'm tired and i want to be inhibited.

i miss feeling nothing.
or nothing real at least.
those days were easy. this time last year i was living. or not. which ever one the easy one was.

dammit. i hate having people i know in my classes.

i don't want anything. everything is just a hassle now.

i just want one thing.

it still hurts.

(whine whine bitch, bitch whine bitch, moan piss bitch, piss whine moan)