mood: hopeful
I don't love you. I can't love you.
As a matter a fact, I don't want to love you.
You see the word love has been wanted out through time
and this time there's no doubt about the way I want you,
it's just that like the others who claim they've been in love before me,
the word love has been used, absued, lied to, neglected, cheated on,
and sometimes even forgotten.
So you see, I don't want to love you,
cuz you see it used to be that the word love could put the brakes on any conversation
and leave someone feeling utterly, speechless.
But now a days the word love is used to fill breaks in conversations
and put reason behind why you can't leave someone who makes you feel utterly, useless.
So I don't want to L-O-V-E you
but I do want to take those letters flip them around
and begin spelling the word evolve
because I want us to grow into something
amazing and indescribable with the use of just one word.
I don't want to love you, but I do want to make you like my childhood best friend,
so no matter how bad we hurt each other or beat each other up on the inside
we can always make up again.
I want to feel a permanent connection
that is so perfectly passionate
that I could sit you on the other side of a jam packed arena,
look at you once and have the entire stadium know that you're mine.
I say I don't want to love you but you're the one I'm trying to find,
I wanna take everyone of your thoughts out on a date,
say the right things, and if I play my cards right,
at the end of the night you might invite me inside. Your mind.
Now see what I'm doing?
I'm trying to take the "I" out of the "I'm doing this for us"
because there is no I in US it's just us,
so let us put the life back into love
so we can place love back into our lives,
and put the underdog at the front of the race.
Cuz I'm trying to redefine love as something much more than
who can get the most comments on their pictures on their myspace.
You see we, we were made from love,
and it's all we have in the end,
so when I say that you helped me re-believe in love
it's like you helped me find God again, and as cliche as it may sound,
I believe that is something worth dying for,
but at the same time you make me want to live again,
and if I said that you made me a one woman man,
it wouldn't be true because you went and made me a one soul person,
because even if I were to lose my mind,
forget my feelings and die I would still only be able to love you.
So you see I don't want to love you,
cuz this might not seem like much to most,
but this is the greatest thing I've discovered since poetry,
and if theres one thing poets know it's how to recognize truth
and thats how I know this was meant to be.
So you see I don't want to love you.
I need to.