Falling in love again
The best part of my relationship with Donnie... falling in love all over again with him.
So yesterday when we made up after our little argument, I felt really bad. More so weird. I felt really weird. I don't know why, I think just the argument and the stress of everything else left me somewhat drained.
And then he told me he was going to give up his vice for me because he didn't want to hurt me. And I was in shock. I just couldn't believe it, I couldn't believe he'd give up something so difficult for him to give up, just for me. That's love. And I appreciate so much more than he'll ever know.
I was about to tell him that I was sorry, too, and that he was right... that I have to accept him for who he is if this is going to work. I was going to tell him that I'll try not to make it about me.
But I'm glad he spoke first. If it was the other way, I think I might have lied. Or I would have just lived on hiding how I felt.
I just felt so bad when we fought, though. I wasn't trying to come off judging him. I didn't think he was disgusting or gross or ugly or a sinner. I didn't think any of that. If anything, the only reason why I was hurt was because I felt like he wanted his vice more than he wants me. I felt like I'd never compare to what his vice gives him. It's difficult because I tie emotion with being intimate, but I know that his vice wasn't about emotion at all. I was just scared he was going to lose his emotions for me... especially his intimate emotions.
Today was a good day, though. It started off a little shaky, I know he was having a bad day, but he got rather sassy with me. I got pissed off, but I let it go. I didn't want to add to his stress. I knew he was having a bad day so I didn't want to make it worse. I let him be mad and treat me like whatever... I took one for the team! He felt a little better when I asked him if he wanted to watch HIMYM. We went to Oakland Mall because he sold his iPad and we went around so he could try on his shoes. We proceeded to eat at IHOP because we had a coupon and had the simple and fit menu entrees which were perfect proportions. We headed to TCBY for dessert and since he didn't enjoy his yogurt, we went to Somerset.
After, we went home to study. He was so silly and we just had a good time. We watched the first episode of the 5th season for HIMYM and we exchanged rather passionate yet simple kisses. We gave up making out and deep kissing in hopes to turn away from the occasion of sin, but foreals... that man can kiss! Even without tongue, I just felt this electricity snap through me. Then I walked him to his car and he just kept trying to jiggle me! It was so silly, but I couldn't stop laughing. And I fell in love with him... again.
That is how I know we have chemistry. We don't need that tempting make out sessions to really feel that love through those sensual, simple pecks. And I love it. So much chemistry and passion.
I love you, boyfriend... and I'm so grateful to have someone in my life whom I can constantly fall in love with.
No greater feeling.
So yesterday when we made up after our little argument, I felt really bad. More so weird. I felt really weird. I don't know why, I think just the argument and the stress of everything else left me somewhat drained.
And then he told me he was going to give up his vice for me because he didn't want to hurt me. And I was in shock. I just couldn't believe it, I couldn't believe he'd give up something so difficult for him to give up, just for me. That's love. And I appreciate so much more than he'll ever know.
I was about to tell him that I was sorry, too, and that he was right... that I have to accept him for who he is if this is going to work. I was going to tell him that I'll try not to make it about me.
But I'm glad he spoke first. If it was the other way, I think I might have lied. Or I would have just lived on hiding how I felt.
I just felt so bad when we fought, though. I wasn't trying to come off judging him. I didn't think he was disgusting or gross or ugly or a sinner. I didn't think any of that. If anything, the only reason why I was hurt was because I felt like he wanted his vice more than he wants me. I felt like I'd never compare to what his vice gives him. It's difficult because I tie emotion with being intimate, but I know that his vice wasn't about emotion at all. I was just scared he was going to lose his emotions for me... especially his intimate emotions.
Today was a good day, though. It started off a little shaky, I know he was having a bad day, but he got rather sassy with me. I got pissed off, but I let it go. I didn't want to add to his stress. I knew he was having a bad day so I didn't want to make it worse. I let him be mad and treat me like whatever... I took one for the team! He felt a little better when I asked him if he wanted to watch HIMYM. We went to Oakland Mall because he sold his iPad and we went around so he could try on his shoes. We proceeded to eat at IHOP because we had a coupon and had the simple and fit menu entrees which were perfect proportions. We headed to TCBY for dessert and since he didn't enjoy his yogurt, we went to Somerset.
After, we went home to study. He was so silly and we just had a good time. We watched the first episode of the 5th season for HIMYM and we exchanged rather passionate yet simple kisses. We gave up making out and deep kissing in hopes to turn away from the occasion of sin, but foreals... that man can kiss! Even without tongue, I just felt this electricity snap through me. Then I walked him to his car and he just kept trying to jiggle me! It was so silly, but I couldn't stop laughing. And I fell in love with him... again.
That is how I know we have chemistry. We don't need that tempting make out sessions to really feel that love through those sensual, simple pecks. And I love it. So much chemistry and passion.
I love you, boyfriend... and I'm so grateful to have someone in my life whom I can constantly fall in love with.
No greater feeling.