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i feel dumb. and bad. and stupid.
everything hurts.
mentally, emotionally, phsyically.
everything just HURTS.
i feel stupid for just sitting here.
i feel stupid for wanting to talk to mike.
i feel stupid for wishing i was with him.
i feel bad for not being able to go home with weekend.
i want to go home its just too much of a gamble.
i feel bad for wanting to be in bayside as much as i want to go home.
i want to go home to be with liz and make liz feel better.
i want to go to bayside to be alone and make me feel better.
bayside is the equivelant of liz's long drives, for me.
i hate being selfish.
i hate feeling selfish.
i hate sailing in the cold, and the rain.
i hate saying "i" so much
-heather
everything hurts.
mentally, emotionally, phsyically.
everything just HURTS.
i feel stupid for just sitting here.
i feel stupid for wanting to talk to mike.
i feel stupid for wishing i was with him.
i feel bad for not being able to go home with weekend.
i want to go home its just too much of a gamble.
i feel bad for wanting to be in bayside as much as i want to go home.
i want to go home to be with liz and make liz feel better.
i want to go to bayside to be alone and make me feel better.
bayside is the equivelant of liz's long drives, for me.
i hate being selfish.
i hate feeling selfish.
i hate sailing in the cold, and the rain.
i hate saying "i" so much
-heather