...

[_nureen_]

{Written in Photography, while I was in the verge of tears}

I see you smile, and I can’t help but smile myself.
That smile of your’s brings a warmth in my body.
Something Strong.
Unbreakable.
But when your head turns away, so does that warmth.
It disappears,
Without a trace.

Yet I haven’t got that far yet.
That second glance.
I’d be lucky if I get a first,
Or any at all.

You don’t know what goes on.
In my head.
You know nothing.
It doesn’t even cross your mind.

I don’t even cross your mind.

Look around. Open your eyes.
I’m here,
In front of you.

Yet your glance just passes by.

I feel that every worry,
Every problem in my life would leave me,
And I would be happy.
Happy for once.
If only you were here,
With me.

Though I see you smile.
And I feel the warmth.
I look at your face,
And into your eyes.

But you don’t look back.
You don’t look at all.
In fact,
You’re looking at someone else.

I’m going crazy. Did you know?
Every moment your in my mind.
Every minute,
Every second.

I want to be there,
By your side.
Look at you and know your looking back at me.
Hold your hand and know that you want to be here,
With me.
Kiss you and know that you wouldn’t want to be anywhere else in the world.
Wouldn’t want to be with anyone else in the world,
Except me.

I want you to feel what I feel.
Go through what I’m going through.
Become crazy.
Become me.

I want you to know what it is like to fall for someone,
And have them not know your name.
Not know who you are.

To have them never looked at you.
Never showed any interest.

And I want to know how you feel.

Maybe you’ll realise what its like.
And maybe you’ll fall for me.

But you’ll never fall as hard as me.
You’ll never know what its like.
You’ll never love without being loved in return.

And as much as I would like to,
I will never be with you.