...continued
Just so you know, this is a continuation of the post I made earlier today, so if you want to know what was going pre to, I suggest yuo read back. As you may know, I just like to make big posts, becasue I only bring myself to post once a week, normall,y so this goes on with it.
Well, it has only been 3 hours since I wrote my last post, and for the first time this weekend, I went out in daylight. The only other time I went out this weekend was at midnight, to gosee Lauren, and that really was the only happy time I have had this entire break. I went over and stayed at her house until about four, I was supposed to leave around 3:30, but I didnt really want to, becasue I realized the fact that it would be the only time I get to see her... or probably even talk to her for a few days... most likely, given her current situation (which I am sure many of you allready know) Anyhow, I just went over and we watched Napoleon dynamite, then basically just sniggled up and allmost fell asleep. It was a good time all around. Anyhow, I am gett ing off topic. Today I went outside in daylight for the first time this weekend. Juan and Ricky asked me to go to the mall, and I did, a bit hesistantly, for I didnt really want to, but I did none the less.I got there at four thirty, and Ben was the first to get there, and he shared with me what he did last night, which was get drunk with some friends. Frankly, I was dissapointed with him, for as most of you know, I dont drink. (that is dissapointment number 5,672 since friday). Then after a while, Ricky and Juan got there, and they cashed in their old videogames and got some cas...which they didnt spend... and then we went to Sam Goodie so that they could get a CD Ricky wanted, which they didnt have. After that they stated that they did all they wanted to, and that they wanted to leave. I wasa rather annoyed, for I bothered to get my peeved little ass out of my dark room to go see them, and I am sick and depressed, and they both wanted to leave after 30 minutes, and I didnt even get to go to one of the main stores tat I wanted to go to. Atlast I did get to go check and ee itf the Poster store had the Salvador Dali painting I wanted, but they didnt. Then, I convinced them to stay a little longer, and we went outside and talked about murdering these stoners that were pretnding to be bushes while sneaking up on their friends. After that I just went home. ACh. A real waste of time. And yes, I do realize that I am looking at everything rather pessimistically , but hour out of the thousands of dissapointments I have had this weekend, I have had only two moments that could be looked at optimistically. And those are getting to see Lauren, and getting to see my friends, though I was too annoyed to whole time to really enjoy that part of it.
PS- Sorry if I blew up at anyone who was trying to talk to me this weekend. Its just been a really bad time for me. Please forgive me for any rudeness I have inflicted on you.
-Your lonely,depressed, pessimistic, complaining friend,
-Kris
Well, it has only been 3 hours since I wrote my last post, and for the first time this weekend, I went out in daylight. The only other time I went out this weekend was at midnight, to gosee Lauren, and that really was the only happy time I have had this entire break. I went over and stayed at her house until about four, I was supposed to leave around 3:30, but I didnt really want to, becasue I realized the fact that it would be the only time I get to see her... or probably even talk to her for a few days... most likely, given her current situation (which I am sure many of you allready know) Anyhow, I just went over and we watched Napoleon dynamite, then basically just sniggled up and allmost fell asleep. It was a good time all around. Anyhow, I am gett ing off topic. Today I went outside in daylight for the first time this weekend. Juan and Ricky asked me to go to the mall, and I did, a bit hesistantly, for I didnt really want to, but I did none the less.I got there at four thirty, and Ben was the first to get there, and he shared with me what he did last night, which was get drunk with some friends. Frankly, I was dissapointed with him, for as most of you know, I dont drink. (that is dissapointment number 5,672 since friday). Then after a while, Ricky and Juan got there, and they cashed in their old videogames and got some cas...which they didnt spend... and then we went to Sam Goodie so that they could get a CD Ricky wanted, which they didnt have. After that they stated that they did all they wanted to, and that they wanted to leave. I wasa rather annoyed, for I bothered to get my peeved little ass out of my dark room to go see them, and I am sick and depressed, and they both wanted to leave after 30 minutes, and I didnt even get to go to one of the main stores tat I wanted to go to. Atlast I did get to go check and ee itf the Poster store had the Salvador Dali painting I wanted, but they didnt. Then, I convinced them to stay a little longer, and we went outside and talked about murdering these stoners that were pretnding to be bushes while sneaking up on their friends. After that I just went home. ACh. A real waste of time. And yes, I do realize that I am looking at everything rather pessimistically , but hour out of the thousands of dissapointments I have had this weekend, I have had only two moments that could be looked at optimistically. And those are getting to see Lauren, and getting to see my friends, though I was too annoyed to whole time to really enjoy that part of it.
PS- Sorry if I blew up at anyone who was trying to talk to me this weekend. Its just been a really bad time for me. Please forgive me for any rudeness I have inflicted on you.
-Your lonely,depressed, pessimistic, complaining friend,
-Kris