Tears of intense gratitude...

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm a lesbian, but then I realize that even though I'm not always attracted to men initially, I love having sex with them...

i'm feeling much better now, aside from just now having to watch an upsetting commercial...my mind is a calmer place to exist, or as much as it can be....my world slowly feels like it is righting itself, and for that, i'm grateful...will is back, vanquishing the unexplained nervousness and alienation...also, self initiated change, the rarity that ( Read more... )

i had a good weekend with jason..it was short, though..conflict was handled mostly well...the rest of the time was spent enjoy each other's company...

sunday felt off for an unknown reason..i spilled a hot beverage in my car and on my hand..i made an unwanted trip to my parents' house..i love them, but from sleeping too much saturday afternoon, i ( Read more... )

i woke up around 3am-ish sunday morning pretty sick, headache, vomiting, etc...i left a good chunk of the contents of my digestive track in the crapper...it was a pretty horrible feeling that i was sure wouldn't end, but it did..i tried like hell to take it like a champ...about an hour later, i was in bed, fetal position, delirious...my alarm went ( Read more... )

i have things to say...not sure how to say them...guess this will just be a warning to you all...words will be coming soon..

this day has been filled with mini emotional breakdowns...i can't stand it..between episodes, i'm trying pretty hard to maintain my sanity..after all, i'm the reason i'm in this mess in the first place...

everything around me feels super chaotic...everything feels like it's changing and spinning so fast that i can't keep up..it's making me feel ( Read more... )

i'm a total crazy person...as i type this, i feel like i'm shrinking...the whole world seems to be getting larger and larger around me...there are no physical sensations to go along with this perception...*shrugs*..one of the many symptoms of hanging out alone..

speaking of hanging out alone, i've been feeling sleepy since i woke up at midnight.. ( Read more... )

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these past few weeks have, yet again, been an emotional roller coaster...i definitely get tired of expressing this sentiment...i could go into extravagant detail about what i've been up to all this time, but i think i'll save the novel for another day ( Read more... )