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this day has been filled with mini emotional breakdowns...i can't stand it..between episodes, i'm trying pretty hard to maintain my sanity..after all, i'm the reason i'm in this mess in the first place...
everything around me feels super chaotic...everything feels like it's changing and spinning so fast that i can't keep up..it's making me feel completely dizzy and out of control...my work conditions are changing...my living conditions are changing..the weather is changing...i know that change is inevitable, but i never feel quite equipped enough to handle it..it's always been hard for me to roll with it..i always resist, even if the end result is better for me...
regardless, i've managed to complete a few mundane tasks around the house & finish up some homework..this weekend, i've managed to devour an entire bag of snack size twizzlers...i can't help but feel like i should be doing things to be proud of, but i guess it's just awesome that i'm doing anything at all...
my brain is kinda trailing off here...i'm sorry that this couldn't be more spectacular or insightful..maybe next time..
everything around me feels super chaotic...everything feels like it's changing and spinning so fast that i can't keep up..it's making me feel completely dizzy and out of control...my work conditions are changing...my living conditions are changing..the weather is changing...i know that change is inevitable, but i never feel quite equipped enough to handle it..it's always been hard for me to roll with it..i always resist, even if the end result is better for me...
regardless, i've managed to complete a few mundane tasks around the house & finish up some homework..this weekend, i've managed to devour an entire bag of snack size twizzlers...i can't help but feel like i should be doing things to be proud of, but i guess it's just awesome that i'm doing anything at all...
my brain is kinda trailing off here...i'm sorry that this couldn't be more spectacular or insightful..maybe next time..