its been awhile.
im stuck.
im stuck in this stupid rut.
im not sad, but im scared.
what happens if i get back into oneonta, and i hate it. what if everything is completely different. i feel as though im going to expect it to be the way i left it, and i know its not going to be that way. ive already been replaced.
april already has a new best friend. because shes there and im not.
and im jealous.
but what happens if i dont get in?
i have applied anywhere else. i so dont want to go back to WCC and be home.
commuting to school blows.
i just wanna be where i was a year ago. except doing well in oneonta.
why wouldnt i get back in?
i got a 3.5 last semester. and on the deans list.
but maybe they wont want me.
i dont wanna be stuck home.
ill go crazy.
im stuck in this stupid rut.
im not sad, but im scared.
what happens if i get back into oneonta, and i hate it. what if everything is completely different. i feel as though im going to expect it to be the way i left it, and i know its not going to be that way. ive already been replaced.
april already has a new best friend. because shes there and im not.
and im jealous.
but what happens if i dont get in?
i have applied anywhere else. i so dont want to go back to WCC and be home.
commuting to school blows.
i just wanna be where i was a year ago. except doing well in oneonta.
why wouldnt i get back in?
i got a 3.5 last semester. and on the deans list.
but maybe they wont want me.
i dont wanna be stuck home.
ill go crazy.