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so last night I was gonna go up to the party at james' house... and ina may was supposed to call me to let me know if it was alright with james and what not... and she never called.
that really pisses me off. I feel like she doesn't even care about me anymore. she doesn't even TRY to hang out with me, either... well, out of school anyway. she says her parents said 6 months till we can hang out again... and she's like "it's only been like 3 months..." and THAT PISSES ME OFF because I know for a fact that it's been like 5 and a half months and we could probably start hanging out again if she even TRIED to ask her dad, even made an attempt. I know it's been 5 and a half months because I looked back in april when I posted about us getting caught ditching... and that's when her parents decided that. it's august now, DO THE MATH. and yeah. so I told her I know it has been 5 and a half months and she's like no it hasn't... she says it's been 4 at the MOST. I'm like you IDIOT. grr. maybe she doesn't remember exactly how long it's been because while I was sitting at home with no friends doing nothing for those 5 months she was out hanging out with JESSICA (grr) and james, EVERY DAY, getting stoned, so i guess when you're having that much fun you kind of lose track of time and FORGET ABOUT YOUR BEST FRIEND.
ugh. I just. I'm pissed. I fucking hate my life right now, and it SUCKS because I was SO happy while I was in oregon, i was fucking... in pure bliss. and now, I'm back in hell and I just... I'm so frustrated.
me, ina and aaron smoked yesterday after school. it wasn't even that great. I'm just... over smoking. I mean, yeah, I laughed and was happy but whatever, I just came home and got tired and waited for ina may to call and she never did. I wish I hadn't smoked... and my lungs hurt after, too. fuck that.... fuck fucking up my lungs.
so ina called this morning and was like "sorry about yesterday.... we couldn't find the phone."
uuuuugh.
I am so fucking mad... and sad... and OVER IT. fuck. plus I'm on my period so I'm extra emotional... yesterday I just felt like dying.
I need to go back to oregon.
on a happier note, I borrowed the new brand new cd from jacob, was listening to it nonstop yesterday, I <3 it sooooooooooooooooo much... even though it's really sad and was probably fueling to my utter depressed pissed off state last night, but it felt good to listn to emo when I was feeling emo. yeah.
that really pisses me off. I feel like she doesn't even care about me anymore. she doesn't even TRY to hang out with me, either... well, out of school anyway. she says her parents said 6 months till we can hang out again... and she's like "it's only been like 3 months..." and THAT PISSES ME OFF because I know for a fact that it's been like 5 and a half months and we could probably start hanging out again if she even TRIED to ask her dad, even made an attempt. I know it's been 5 and a half months because I looked back in april when I posted about us getting caught ditching... and that's when her parents decided that. it's august now, DO THE MATH. and yeah. so I told her I know it has been 5 and a half months and she's like no it hasn't... she says it's been 4 at the MOST. I'm like you IDIOT. grr. maybe she doesn't remember exactly how long it's been because while I was sitting at home with no friends doing nothing for those 5 months she was out hanging out with JESSICA (grr) and james, EVERY DAY, getting stoned, so i guess when you're having that much fun you kind of lose track of time and FORGET ABOUT YOUR BEST FRIEND.
ugh. I just. I'm pissed. I fucking hate my life right now, and it SUCKS because I was SO happy while I was in oregon, i was fucking... in pure bliss. and now, I'm back in hell and I just... I'm so frustrated.
me, ina and aaron smoked yesterday after school. it wasn't even that great. I'm just... over smoking. I mean, yeah, I laughed and was happy but whatever, I just came home and got tired and waited for ina may to call and she never did. I wish I hadn't smoked... and my lungs hurt after, too. fuck that.... fuck fucking up my lungs.
so ina called this morning and was like "sorry about yesterday.... we couldn't find the phone."
uuuuugh.
I am so fucking mad... and sad... and OVER IT. fuck. plus I'm on my period so I'm extra emotional... yesterday I just felt like dying.
I need to go back to oregon.
on a happier note, I borrowed the new brand new cd from jacob, was listening to it nonstop yesterday, I <3 it sooooooooooooooooo much... even though it's really sad and was probably fueling to my utter depressed pissed off state last night, but it felt good to listn to emo when I was feeling emo. yeah.