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well today was just another shitty day. i was up till like 12 on the phone with my dad and then i was up till like 1 crying about all the shit and then i was up like every hour from being sick..so when my grandmother tried to wake me up at 7 am you can imagine how I reacted. Well I still had to get up at 9 and sit out in the garage doing nothing for her bullshit little garage sale that SHE wanted to do but IIII am the only one that has done anything. Anyways around 4 Mandy came and took me to the doctors..got some medicine and they took a strep test and then we came back here and I layed down till mom got here. We went out to eat and it took all the power I had in me to not cry but once we got back here I couldn't hold back..idn wtf is wrong with me I am just so sick of crying. Everything seems so fucked up and out of place I just cant even take it anymore. Regaurdless..I'm at a loss for words so I'm just gonna finish up the night with a good cry and maybe a phone call with the boyfriend.
and no I'm not trying to sound depressed or make people sorry for me I'm just getting my feelings out in the only way I can right now. If you have a problem with it don't read my fucking journal.
i love you hunnie