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so....everyone has a bad day i guess..today my hair wont do anything im skipping class and i have a job interview at five....arg... but at least i have a collection of pure angst in muzzzac form....
the thing ios i m in a puit of sheer depression for no apparent reason...maybe its where i am in live in a course i cant do in a body i dont like....talking to people that im not sure if they like me...i went to the queens student union for a drink with emma...bigself's exgirl friend and found out a few interesting things...i thought she always hated me but she doesnt which kinda makes me happy...i suppose...but recently i just dont feel like what im doing in my life is gonna lead me anywhere....im not the kind of guy that has aim...but wants to do something im gonna find out about entrances for an english course at tech....just anything but hairdressing....but i want to do hairdressing....its confusing and with people being in my way with pathetic bitching at my "friends"....you see i care for my "friends" but do they care for me...i just feel lonely at the moment...
...sean from my house sat in my room for a few hours talking about his life and how he blames the care system in northern ireland for him being put in prison but thats just escapisism is what i thought...but then i think about my life i have found myself saying...if my mother and father had cared then maybe i would have a better life...but i wouldnt of i would be moving around every few months running away from the thinmgs they hateded the most...themselves
im sure someday ill find some one who gives a shit
the thing ios i m in a puit of sheer depression for no apparent reason...maybe its where i am in live in a course i cant do in a body i dont like....talking to people that im not sure if they like me...i went to the queens student union for a drink with emma...bigself's exgirl friend and found out a few interesting things...i thought she always hated me but she doesnt which kinda makes me happy...i suppose...but recently i just dont feel like what im doing in my life is gonna lead me anywhere....im not the kind of guy that has aim...but wants to do something im gonna find out about entrances for an english course at tech....just anything but hairdressing....but i want to do hairdressing....its confusing and with people being in my way with pathetic bitching at my "friends"....you see i care for my "friends" but do they care for me...i just feel lonely at the moment...
...sean from my house sat in my room for a few hours talking about his life and how he blames the care system in northern ireland for him being put in prison but thats just escapisism is what i thought...but then i think about my life i have found myself saying...if my mother and father had cared then maybe i would have a better life...but i wouldnt of i would be moving around every few months running away from the thinmgs they hateded the most...themselves
im sure someday ill find some one who gives a shit