if i could give you anything it would be happiness and a coffin for her cold heart
I've been biting my tongue for a long time. And i still continue but i need to rant.
I came home today, checked msn cause i havent talked to my sweetie in a number of days and it had me worried. Well i come on and he's upset but i cant actually talk to him because i have to leave. I have a feeling of what it involves but im not sure. I leave and come back and just as i expected is what is bugging him.
I hate that she gets under his skin the way she does. I dont even know most of the situation and the story. I can only go by what i have been told and the way he reacts but i dont like her. I dont like how manipulative she is. I dont like how she makes him miserable. I dont like how she makes him drink.
His daughter is what matters. I wish there was a way that he could have a relationship with her without having the mother around. The mother is the problem. She has this vendetta to ruin his life. make him feel horrible. Make him suffer.
I wish he was happy. And its hard to see the sun shine through some days. I try to help him. I try to pick him up. But its not fair. Its not fair that she can make him feel horrible and guilty and then i have to help him be himself again. Hes beautiful, brilliant and fascinating. I love him. I love him more than anyone can imagine and she goes on trying to break him. What if she suceeds what if i cant help him forever?
He wouldnt even talk about it today. It was shutdown and change the topic. all i know is she did it again. How am i supposed to help? I can only give so much love from a far distance. He says he's better but i dont know if i should believe him. I dont because i worry and im a pessimist.
He means the world to me and she's trying to take him away. A person can only chip away for so long until they break you. And she tries damn hard. I wish i was there to help him. I wish i felt like i was doing more good. I wish i could break her knees. I wish her all the damnation and a world of suffering because for once in my life i think she is the first person that honestly deserves a life of misery and pain.
She needs to feel her own medicine. Everything she does to him she needs to feel.
I wanted to cry today after talking to him. It takes alot for me to cry. But i feel so useless. I feel saying "I love you and that you mean the world to me" isnt good enough. I will run away him. I will hide from her with him. Even though she should be wanting to hide from me because the first thing i swear she will meet of me is my fist breaking her nose.
Ive fought before. I thought that was gone. But the spark is still there. Just wait.
Scott if you read this, I love you. Im worried. And I miss you so much.
I came home today, checked msn cause i havent talked to my sweetie in a number of days and it had me worried. Well i come on and he's upset but i cant actually talk to him because i have to leave. I have a feeling of what it involves but im not sure. I leave and come back and just as i expected is what is bugging him.
I hate that she gets under his skin the way she does. I dont even know most of the situation and the story. I can only go by what i have been told and the way he reacts but i dont like her. I dont like how manipulative she is. I dont like how she makes him miserable. I dont like how she makes him drink.
His daughter is what matters. I wish there was a way that he could have a relationship with her without having the mother around. The mother is the problem. She has this vendetta to ruin his life. make him feel horrible. Make him suffer.
I wish he was happy. And its hard to see the sun shine through some days. I try to help him. I try to pick him up. But its not fair. Its not fair that she can make him feel horrible and guilty and then i have to help him be himself again. Hes beautiful, brilliant and fascinating. I love him. I love him more than anyone can imagine and she goes on trying to break him. What if she suceeds what if i cant help him forever?
He wouldnt even talk about it today. It was shutdown and change the topic. all i know is she did it again. How am i supposed to help? I can only give so much love from a far distance. He says he's better but i dont know if i should believe him. I dont because i worry and im a pessimist.
He means the world to me and she's trying to take him away. A person can only chip away for so long until they break you. And she tries damn hard. I wish i was there to help him. I wish i felt like i was doing more good. I wish i could break her knees. I wish her all the damnation and a world of suffering because for once in my life i think she is the first person that honestly deserves a life of misery and pain.
She needs to feel her own medicine. Everything she does to him she needs to feel.
I wanted to cry today after talking to him. It takes alot for me to cry. But i feel so useless. I feel saying "I love you and that you mean the world to me" isnt good enough. I will run away him. I will hide from her with him. Even though she should be wanting to hide from me because the first thing i swear she will meet of me is my fist breaking her nose.
Ive fought before. I thought that was gone. But the spark is still there. Just wait.
Scott if you read this, I love you. Im worried. And I miss you so much.