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[_nikki_263]

Im home now... ive been away 4 a bit... i spent practically the whole weekend at my baby'z house... and i had so much fun... im so used 2 her being around me... and im used 2 her lil bro Christian bein around 2... it feels wierd with her not around... and i do wish she was around all the time... Her mom told me i could call her mom the other day and i felt special... lol... and she is so nice 2 me... i even gotta toothbrush and bathroom setup jus 4 me!! yaaay!! and we mowed or whatever... we did sumthin 2 the lawn and bushes outside lol... and it felt good being up in the mornin outside... and especially cuz i got 2 hangout with my boo n her mom... while Christian slept... slept his life away... lol... but She had, 2 quote MomDEE, "sumthin 4 his ass!" LMAO! MomDEE is so trusting... and we were tryna "behave"... it was very difficult tho... but yea this weekend was fun... i gotta werk 2nite at 5:30... on friday nite, i was jus starin in2 her eyes and thinkin 2 myself... she is so beautiful... and plus she duz so many cute things...  and she caters 2 my every wish... which is so wierd yet enjoyable... i am soo sooo happy rite now... i feel like this relationship is heaven-sent... everything is rite with it...shez my boo... and i cant get enuff her her... and im missin her rite now... my mom was missin my 2... and she alwayz got sumthin 2 say... and she was sayin a lot... annoying! o yea... laguita has been playin on my fone... and she mad as shyt... but u  kno what u never kno how much sumthin means 2 u til u lose it... and i wasnt sure b4... but i kno im ready 2 move on... and i kno itz hurtin her and i wish i could say i feel bad or sry 4 her but i really dont... she was horrible 2 me... and i was blinded and i didnt realize the extent of it... but now the my feelings have significantly dulled... i see. and i AM angry with her... and i DO resent her i DONT hate her... but i HAVE NOT 4given her... she duznt deserve it... she duznt deserve me... she duznt deserve happiness... she deserves 2 live in misery... the same misery that she caused me... the sam misery that she caused others in her past... the way i see it, when u hurt sumone once or even twice, it is sumwhat concievable... but when u go thru ure life hurting ppl, stomping on hearts  becuz of ure own selfishness, it is not at all acceptable... i used 2 think everyone deserved happiness... but not u... u dont... u deserve pain and agony...  u kno... an eye 4 an eye... but anywayz back 2 my happiness... or our happiness... imma bout 2 read my boo's LJ... then talk 2 her... and i'll jus leave u with these hot lyrics... not exactly 4 the children... jus a word of warning...
 ok kidz... IMOUT!!

Baby... would you mind touching me
Ever so slowly
You're making me quiver
Baby... would you mind undressing me
Making me feel sexy
While in the moment

Cause I'm gonna
Bathe you, play with you, rub you, caress you
Tell you how much I've missed you
I just wanna
Touch you, tease you, lick you, please you
Love you, hold you, make love to you
And I'm gonna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you
Feel you deep inside me ohh
I'm gonna
Kiss you, suck you, taste you, ride you,
Feel you, make you come too

Baby... would you mind kissing me
All over my body
You misseed a spot... ... there...
Baby... would you mind tasting me
It's making me all juicy
Feeling your lips on mine

Baby... would you mind??