Book of Changes
It's funny how the memory can be so selective.
When I discovered Kory was engaged, I was initially suprised - then my overly protective nature kicked in and I found myself practically demanding to know who this guy thought he was - was he really serious about committing to her, about not taking her affections for granted...
I don't normally make those kinds of overtures towards people who state an intent to marry friends of mine. But Kory and I were more than friends, once. More than teammates, and more than x'tyre'n.
We were almost husband and wife.
Almost zhuranyre'n.
Until Raven crashed the wedding... and everything, including both our lives, went to hell in the proverbial handbasket.
No surprise then, that the announced engagement brought so much back to the present - echoes of our own hastily-announced betrothal so many years ago. And now, she's asked Babs and I to stand with her and Hugo at their own wedding ceremony.
I think I've dealt with the aftermath of our relationship all wrong. I've spent most of my time trying to forget about those feelings I had instead of coming to terms with them. Trying to go back to 'how it was before' instead of allowing myself to just -accept- what we went through and be at peace with it.
Kory was such a big a part of my life for so long. I learned so much, and I fell so hard. I thought... I truly thought, then, that she was the one. And we tried - God, we tried, even after all that happened, to make it work. I'm realizing now that part of me needs that closure, before I can really move on. That I still love Kory, but the love I felt for her - and still do, on some level - wasn't the love that would sustain us as a couple.
It just wasn't to be. And it hurt so much when we finally parted.
I have the chance now to make peace with a part of my past. I'm not about to let that slip away. Not this time.
I've got a plane to catch.
When I discovered Kory was engaged, I was initially suprised - then my overly protective nature kicked in and I found myself practically demanding to know who this guy thought he was - was he really serious about committing to her, about not taking her affections for granted...
I don't normally make those kinds of overtures towards people who state an intent to marry friends of mine. But Kory and I were more than friends, once. More than teammates, and more than x'tyre'n.
We were almost husband and wife.
Almost zhuranyre'n.
Until Raven crashed the wedding... and everything, including both our lives, went to hell in the proverbial handbasket.
No surprise then, that the announced engagement brought so much back to the present - echoes of our own hastily-announced betrothal so many years ago. And now, she's asked Babs and I to stand with her and Hugo at their own wedding ceremony.
I think I've dealt with the aftermath of our relationship all wrong. I've spent most of my time trying to forget about those feelings I had instead of coming to terms with them. Trying to go back to 'how it was before' instead of allowing myself to just -accept- what we went through and be at peace with it.
Kory was such a big a part of my life for so long. I learned so much, and I fell so hard. I thought... I truly thought, then, that she was the one. And we tried - God, we tried, even after all that happened, to make it work. I'm realizing now that part of me needs that closure, before I can really move on. That I still love Kory, but the love I felt for her - and still do, on some level - wasn't the love that would sustain us as a couple.
It just wasn't to be. And it hurt so much when we finally parted.
I have the chance now to make peace with a part of my past. I'm not about to let that slip away. Not this time.
I've got a plane to catch.