And So, You Too Shall.... - Non-JRock, Death Note, Light/L
Title: And So, You Too Shall….
Author: Kagome
Warnings: Angst, character death, oddness, sexual references, language.
Rating: PG-13
Characters/Pairings: L/Light hints.
Disclaimer: Standard disclaimer applies.
Summary: He is only human-only mortal, and he, too, must meet his end.
Comments: The L-muse wouldn’t leave me alone until I wrote this. Spoilers up to episode 25 of the anime!
And So, You Too Shall….
First, L hears the bell-it’s only fitting, since the damn thing has been ringing all day anyway, distracting him from everything he’s tried to accomplish. Only, it’s louder now; it makes his ears ring and makes him feel like his skull might split in two at any moment.
It’s almost loud enough to distract him from the searing pain in his chest.
Then, there’s a lot of commotion-people yelling around him, but he hears the yelling only distantly, like he’s underwater. Their words are distorted; he can’t make them out. The ringing of the bell overshadows them.
He’s only dimly aware of the fact that he’s falling, though he’s acutely aware of Light - of Kira - catching him, keeping him from hitting the floor. What a dramatic gesture. What a perfect little actor.
He is lying in his own killer’s arms, and he can’t do a damn thing about it now-he is dying, after all… massive heart attack, like so many of Kira’s other victims. L is now only one of the many, and it makes sense, because he’s been nothing more than an obstacle to Kira from the beginning. Kira has never been his friend or his lover, but he’s been his enemy. He’s still his enemy, even now. Especially now.
There is no remorse in his killer’s eyes. There is no sadness at all. That will come much later, when Light begins to feel lonely (begins to miss him), and when Kira begins to feel bored with the lack of a challenge (he will miss L too).
Light is Kira. Kira is Light. L had been almost certain of it before, but he is one-hundred percent sure now, and he has never hated being correct until this very moment.
Kira is smiling. Smiling at him, the bastard, and that smile is full of satisfaction. To the victor go the spoils. Check and mate, L has been defeated.
But it isn’t over, L thinks frantically, because there’s Near and Mello, and even though they’re too young right now, they’ll grow up. They are brilliant, both of them, and they can finish this. They have to.
As he stares into those cruel, unfeeling eyes, his life does not flash before him. He sees stained glass and children, the bell still loud in his ears, and then he sees Light (Light apart from Kira)-he remembers his smile and his laughter and his kiss. He remembers Light’s fingers in his hair and Light’s body moving against his. He remembers tangled limbs and tangled sheets and a few stolen, precious moments in which there had been mutual trust.
But those moments are gone, because L is dying and Light is somewhere he cannot reach, buried beneath the greed and the power and the madness and the ridiculous idea of a perfect world.
It’s impossible, L wants to say, but he cannot speak. There can be no perfect world, because humans are imperfect, and that is how the world is meant to be-perfectly imperfect.
L is human, as is Kira. As is Light.
Remember that you are only human, and so you too shall….
Just as there is no Light here, there is no light, either, not like the one some people describe after a near-death experience. However, this isn’t near-death, is it? It is death, and there is no light (or Light) waiting for L. There is only increasing darkness, and L both welcomes and rejects it. There will be no eternal ‘rest’ for him.
Even the ringing of the bell is growing faint now-no longer skull-splitting but something akin to a whisper. The chest pain is negligible.
The darkness fills his vision but he can still see Kira’s guilt-free stare, because it is practically burned onto his retinas.
The bell stops, and for once in L’s entire life, there is nothing.
So this is death: Nothing at all.
And so you too shall…
… Die.
~END~
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I wanted to write L’s thoughts while he died, for some reason. *Squishes L* :/
Author: Kagome
Warnings: Angst, character death, oddness, sexual references, language.
Rating: PG-13
Characters/Pairings: L/Light hints.
Disclaimer: Standard disclaimer applies.
Summary: He is only human-only mortal, and he, too, must meet his end.
Comments: The L-muse wouldn’t leave me alone until I wrote this. Spoilers up to episode 25 of the anime!
And So, You Too Shall….
First, L hears the bell-it’s only fitting, since the damn thing has been ringing all day anyway, distracting him from everything he’s tried to accomplish. Only, it’s louder now; it makes his ears ring and makes him feel like his skull might split in two at any moment.
It’s almost loud enough to distract him from the searing pain in his chest.
Then, there’s a lot of commotion-people yelling around him, but he hears the yelling only distantly, like he’s underwater. Their words are distorted; he can’t make them out. The ringing of the bell overshadows them.
He’s only dimly aware of the fact that he’s falling, though he’s acutely aware of Light - of Kira - catching him, keeping him from hitting the floor. What a dramatic gesture. What a perfect little actor.
He is lying in his own killer’s arms, and he can’t do a damn thing about it now-he is dying, after all… massive heart attack, like so many of Kira’s other victims. L is now only one of the many, and it makes sense, because he’s been nothing more than an obstacle to Kira from the beginning. Kira has never been his friend or his lover, but he’s been his enemy. He’s still his enemy, even now. Especially now.
There is no remorse in his killer’s eyes. There is no sadness at all. That will come much later, when Light begins to feel lonely (begins to miss him), and when Kira begins to feel bored with the lack of a challenge (he will miss L too).
Light is Kira. Kira is Light. L had been almost certain of it before, but he is one-hundred percent sure now, and he has never hated being correct until this very moment.
Kira is smiling. Smiling at him, the bastard, and that smile is full of satisfaction. To the victor go the spoils. Check and mate, L has been defeated.
But it isn’t over, L thinks frantically, because there’s Near and Mello, and even though they’re too young right now, they’ll grow up. They are brilliant, both of them, and they can finish this. They have to.
As he stares into those cruel, unfeeling eyes, his life does not flash before him. He sees stained glass and children, the bell still loud in his ears, and then he sees Light (Light apart from Kira)-he remembers his smile and his laughter and his kiss. He remembers Light’s fingers in his hair and Light’s body moving against his. He remembers tangled limbs and tangled sheets and a few stolen, precious moments in which there had been mutual trust.
But those moments are gone, because L is dying and Light is somewhere he cannot reach, buried beneath the greed and the power and the madness and the ridiculous idea of a perfect world.
It’s impossible, L wants to say, but he cannot speak. There can be no perfect world, because humans are imperfect, and that is how the world is meant to be-perfectly imperfect.
L is human, as is Kira. As is Light.
Remember that you are only human, and so you too shall….
Just as there is no Light here, there is no light, either, not like the one some people describe after a near-death experience. However, this isn’t near-death, is it? It is death, and there is no light (or Light) waiting for L. There is only increasing darkness, and L both welcomes and rejects it. There will be no eternal ‘rest’ for him.
Even the ringing of the bell is growing faint now-no longer skull-splitting but something akin to a whisper. The chest pain is negligible.
The darkness fills his vision but he can still see Kira’s guilt-free stare, because it is practically burned onto his retinas.
The bell stops, and for once in L’s entire life, there is nothing.
So this is death: Nothing at all.
And so you too shall…
… Die.
~END~
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I wanted to write L’s thoughts while he died, for some reason. *Squishes L* :/