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i pulled myself from this heap of self destruction. i looked around and saw the sun shining through the trees. i could hear birds singing in the crisp morning air. i looked over towards you and caught your stare. for a moment everything else disapears and all i can focus on is your eyes. i think about the night before. the alcohol flowing like water. the smoke filled rooms with a constant drone of heavy bass and rhyming words. i can remember, if you can call it that, the blurred vision. the lack of balance and the uncontrolable laugh. it seemed as if everything was on fast forward. any emotion was inihilated with the next drink. but this morning i can see and breath clearly. and i can see you still next to me. what is this need to destroy ourselves? i talk to my friends, i hear about their weekends and i wonder if they ever think of what they're doing to themselves. these addictions hold us like slaves. this is life. we feel the need to destroy it. we feel the need to destroy ourselves. we are on a downward spiral. we slip away from reality with drugs and lies. we move closer to our doom with every breath, every drink. every injection is like a knife being dragged down our wrists and being followed by a shining red line. you told me i've taught you so much. but what have i taught you that you don't already know? what have i shown you that you didn't show me first? it's all a cycle. but it's up to us to pull ourselves from this heap of self destruction, look around and catch the stare of another. work together to chrage through this life with no regrets. take the scars with the memories. take the pain with the love. this is life.