i wanna always feel like part of this was mine, i wanna fall in love tonight
I wonder why I have these random days where I feel like I'm not doing anything worthwhile. I get up, go to Delta, and on days that I don't work I go home and sit around. Except Tuesdays I go to Beth's to study for the quiz we have every Wednesday. I haven't seen my best friends in too long. I haven't been in a relationship in even longer. I dwell on things that happened weeks and months ago. Thinking what if way too much. Delta isn't really a terrible place, but if going there means seeing people that I saw every single day the last three years once every three weeks, I don't know how much more I can take. Don't get me wrong, I'm really content hanging out with Beth every day, we get along and everything, I just really really miss my best friends.
It could have a lot to do with the whole winter thing. Winter is evil and depresses me. I'm going to Florida March 29-April 5, so that should be nice. Sara's due to go into labor any time now. It's weird that the last Floridia trip I took ..in October.. was to help her paint my nephew's room and shop for clothes and things, and this trip I'll see Zac in the clothes and room. Yes, they've had his name picked out since about the second month. Zachary Charles.
I think I'm sick of the routine. I've always hated routines. Seeing how "spring break" is in two weeks, I guess I'll have some time then to do something..different.
I did burn a CD today. . .and who doesn't love new music to listen to?
It could have a lot to do with the whole winter thing. Winter is evil and depresses me. I'm going to Florida March 29-April 5, so that should be nice. Sara's due to go into labor any time now. It's weird that the last Floridia trip I took ..in October.. was to help her paint my nephew's room and shop for clothes and things, and this trip I'll see Zac in the clothes and room. Yes, they've had his name picked out since about the second month. Zachary Charles.
I think I'm sick of the routine. I've always hated routines. Seeing how "spring break" is in two weeks, I guess I'll have some time then to do something..different.
I did burn a CD today. . .and who doesn't love new music to listen to?