Hi

[_nerorosavino_]

so i finally worked out that i'm growning up now. it is such a scary process to undertake. i guess i had to really grow up when i was just 6, when my mother passed on, but i lived a very shelted and protected life, where i was not alowed to be different to the rest. when i finally found my true being i was not accepted by my father, maybe i scared him or maybe he just did not cope with haveing a modern santanist in the house when i was brought up as a good little christian girl and i was up untill the day i worked out that god wasn't going to help those who did not help themselves. i had to find my own path. so at 17 i was kicked out of home, i grew up then, forced to work, which i spose i do enjoy. the past 6 weeks have been a blur, and i guess i haven't really had any where to right down my feelings. then i found it here and well any way. i live with at the moment with _lilithsaytne_ many of you would know her, she is very big in the scene, i adore her as i find her very interesting to speak with and unlike her younger sister, though thalia is one of my closest and much treasured friends, i find that she understands me more than most others do, well it seems she dose. so yeah i guess this is my very first entry of many in this journal. i do wish to find more unqui people out their who stand out from the crowd without shouting it out loud. it is quit scary at this stage in my life to think that i'm independent and have no adult their to guied me, i have to fend for myself, i spose you could say that i feel as if i am a butterfly emerging from its coocoon, i am becomeing what i am and doing what i was born to do, following my path finally, after years of suppression in a strong christian house where morals were held very high. i guess that is why my morals and ethical boundaries may be very hard to breach. life is so short just a second, just a spec of time, a mere scrach on a never ending line, so live it to its fullest cause tomorrow you may die.

yours faithfully

nerorosavino