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what the fuck. i kissed this amazing dirty sing-songy traveler radical canadian girl up at queeruption and its stupid because it was just a fucking kiss, only as i got there, trying really hard to think about not wanting to (i know her from the clinic thus where this crush developed) we spent a lot of time together and on the last night tells me she liiiiikes me and ughghghg fucking hell. i didnt do anything about it, at first, because i just knew it would come to this... but after some time, and beck being a bad influence, i did kiss her. and it was so fucking sweet and slow and awesome. and then we both disappeared, and beck and i left camp early before anyone woke up. its all so strangely surreal. kim and i are in an open relationship, with specific boundries neither of us have broken and have excellent communication. our relationship practically perfect. i talked to her about it, really deeply honestly, and it was a hard at first, but kim doesnt let herself get hung up on stuff. besides, she is first and formost in my life, and this isnt something that im going to let ruin us. i adore her more than anything. i dont even know when im gonna see brescia again anyway. she lives in canada. i love kim. the PROBLEM is i cant stop thinking about her. and it makes me feel terrible that im thinking about her...like all the time. and i dont know what to do about it. fuck. ive got some crazy juju placed on me.